MONDAY

I've finished most of my homework and have a bit of spare time to write a little post on here.

On Monday's I'm in Trowbridge campus which is only 20 minutes away from my house, so today I woke up just in time and everyone had left the house already. I got myself a coke, turned on my laptop and put on some Nirvana music. Then did the usual morning shite: brush teeth, get dressed, put on makeup, coffee and a cigarette.

So my art class was fine, Barry (our life drawing model) came in as usual, but this time we had to use acrylic paint, which I'm totally not used to because we've been using pencil and chalk mostly. And the last time I used acrylic was GCSE, to drawing this Ladies face. It's quite a big drawing as well, like A2, I think. Anyway, I had my camera in today so I took a photo of my painting, so you can see (unfinished, sadly. I took the photo halfway through, when we had a break). At break me and Cecelia, the Swedish girl, went to the canteen to get tea. We then came back to our art studio, and sat down by the radiator eating clementines and drinking tea, because we were freezing. Yes it is so so very cold outside ^_^

After my art class I went to the learning centre to work on my media coursework, because my photography class was cancelled. I almost finished my contents page for the magazine and the cover is ready. Well I think it is, I'll show it to my teacher tomorrow and see what she says.

After 3 hours of sitting by the computer in Trowbridge I decided to go home. So yeah. I am now home. Hihi, I had some food and I will now carry on reading Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, because it's great! I'm so glad I finished all my work for tomorrow (:

Random photo of me in the morning.

On my way to college

 A girl in my art class

Cecilia, the swedish girl in my art class (If you don't remember her, she's the one I was eating clementines with)

My art studio

On my way home

A cat, yes.

Media coursework: Contents

 Media Coursework: Magazine cover

  

My unfinished painting. I just wanted you guys to meet Barry, cuz he's great.

23.05.2011

I hate how blogger doesn't have a 'dashboard' written when your blog is open, its kinda annoying because you have to press 'new post' and only then dashboard.
I complain a lot, don't I...
I hate how i used to be so bother about school and getting good grades couple of years ago, and you know, even last year but now when i should be bothered the most, I'm seriously not bothered. I barely do ANY studying.
I had a nightmare about my mum last night, I saw her getting drunk (Its weird because I have never in my whole life seen her drunk) and leaving me. She said she hated me. And I woke up this morning and I looked all around my house looking for my mum and brother or anyone and how no one was there, and I almost started crying, when I remembered it's Monday and they're all gone. Oh i just really wanted to talk to someone but my mum didn't answer her phone.
I've been having a lot of 'mental' nightmares lately. I saw a talking horses head in a dark, shadowy room the other night. I cant remember now exactly what else I saw but I remember there were sweaty Chinese men doing joga. Ooh yes and I also saw telling my mum about the horse in her room but she didn't believe me and I found myself (it's still the dream you guys) holding my green 'friendship' t-shirt and shaking it and shouting at it 'why don't you understand' or something like that. There were like other million things in my dream but I cant remember what. I think I also saw two boys from out school and it gave me creeps. My nightmares and even dreams are always messed up, you know all over the place. One second your in one place and then second later you are in a totally different place.Bloody hell, it was weird. Also the stupid thing is that I was only taking a nap, and I woke up and I felt like I knew how it feels to be mental. Literally. I was covered in sweat so I took a shower and it made me feel a bit better. You know I wrote lyrics (just words more like, i hate calling the stuff i write poetry or lyrics because i feel like its neither)  about the nightmare i had, and i might edit it and rewrite it a bit and put it on here.
If we're talking about nightmares, a week ago I saw myself by a pretty lake and i was drawing it and then this motorcycle came by and the guy wanted to rape me but then suddenly a van appeared and a boy in it saved me. And the next moment after getting in the van, i fins myself in a living room drinking tea but it all feels wrong.
anyway I didn't even mean to write all this, haha. ok.
I'm planning to go to school today at lunch.
 bye.

p.s. my new haircut :p

sorry for my weird face expressions, i just couldnt be bothered to make a pretty face. Just to let you know, I cut the lenghth myself because the hairdresser cut way too less than she should've. yes i knwo what your thinking, 'who cuts their hair after going to a hairdresser?' 

hah today

Today has been weirdly lovely.
At Lunch I went and sat by river on my own listening to 'Best Coast' and 'Eyes set to kill' and i wrote some lyric's/poems in my maths book. It was raining and I was smoking and it was bloody freezing. My hands felt cold and I couldn't move my pen anymore. Then I came back to school and met Jo and Batoul in the library and so we decided to go lie in the school field instead of going to our stupid welsh lesson. I'm kind of lazy to write but well we ended up sitting in the rain on a bench wet to the skin. That is when we decided to go back inside and that is when a teacher found us and made us all go back to lesson. It was very embarrassing but well what can i say. Batoul has bad influence on me although I was the one that suggested to go to the field. I'm very VERY surprised they agreed because it was raining and cold, and it's very rebellious.
I am now sitting in my non-Welsh lesson and I have English next. YAY me.

dear shit

This is how I've been last couple of weeks. pictures are way too positive for the two weeks i lived through. never mind. I'm over it. I so much happier now, I'm listening to the 'Best Coast' i randomly found them on the youtube. they are yummy, lifts my mood up like UP THERE. 

I have to start carrying paracetamol with me everywhere, because today i almost died of headache. jeez. I hate school please time go faster i want to get it over and done with. I'm so awkward. Why why why. 

I have pictures with me and batoul but she didn't want them posted sadly, because she looked beautiful in them. 

Painful but beautiful

Atnacu majas, fiziski slikti, gribas vemt, nezinu kapec... Man vajag izpildit majasdarbus, fiziku es daleji pabiedzu vel tikai anglu valoda un matematika palika. Baigi gribas gulet, tapec laikam tulit iesu pagulet, tad pabeigsu macities, un mazliet paspelesu gitaru, man ir jaiemacas dziesma: Many Of Horror- Biff Clyro. Loti vienkarsi tikai man mazliet jauztrenne roka 'Bm' akordam. Sodien gandriz pabeidzu  kursadarbu fizikaa, un pec skolas gaju uz zinatnes klubu lai pabeigtu savu projektu: 'Should Cannabis be legalised?' Tikai man aizgaja divas ar pus stundas..
No rita baigi bija es aizutiju Armanam iszinu lai vins nak uz pieturu un tad vins neatnaca, un tad vins atsutija iszinu ka jau nak, un es izskapu pie Tesco lai iekaptu nakamaja autobusa kura vins teica ka bus, un tad es iekapu 44 un vina nebija. Tad man atkal nacas kapt ara nakamaja pietura, un es beidzot vinu satiku 45, no rita iznak ar 3 autobusiem braucu. Mes braucam lidz centram un tad skrejam pari ielai un kapam 27 lai tiktu lidz skolai. Patiesiba tik atri iznaca, mes nokavejam skolu tikai 15 min.
School was fun, mes ar Batoul'u gajam no fizikas uz kautkurieni pusdienslaika un tad mes gajam garam klasei uz kuru iet visi kas kave skolu uz 20 min, un mus ieraudzija un lika palikt tur. Tad mes gribejam ielavities Mrs. Gaskell'es (taa briesmigaa, druasmiga, bailiga skolas parvedeja) lai es varetu nociept manu jaku kuru vina man atnema piektdien. Kamer Batoula dezureja koridorii, es rebelis ieskreju un jaku dabuju. Velak skolas kafiterija es ieraudziju vinu dezurejam un pajautaju vai es varesu dabut atpakal savu jaku, just in case un vina bija briesmigi jauka un teica lai es ienaku pec 10 minutem pie vinas pec tas jakas. Un tad man neatlika nekas cits kaa likt Batoul nakt ar mani lidz vinas offisam un nolikt vinu atpakal. 
mmm. aa, es sodien ieraudziju savu skulpturu!!! Manai balerinai krutis ir iespiestas uz ieksu un veders ari ta riktigi! Skolotaja teica ka izgriezis caurumu aizmugure kartonam un tad izbidis no iekspuses iesistas dalas. Es laikam rit panemsu majas visus A2 makslas darbus un pabeigsu, jo i have to hurry up.
Pec skolas bija ta bish tumss un lietains un vejains, un bija tik forsi iet lidz Newport Roadam ar kajam, es riktigi izbaudiju. Man bija galigi vienalga ka man noteikti notecejusas acis, bija loti jauki, especially with music in my ears.
cau.

shameless

Sodien nobastoju 2 sportus, nekas nekas paliksu dziva. phh ienistu sportu. xD

Es tagad ^.^

Es zinu mans blogs ir bijis diezgan galaicigs pirmo gada dalu, skola skola skola, sorry man nekas cits paslaik dzive nenotiek.

about to go to school.
bye :']

c'est bien! : D

Well, thats very odd. vissa zeme ir klata ar ledu un sniegu, un mums tapat jaiet uz skolu. Un no rita kad es pamodos bija -5!
Parasti mani riti ir pilnigi debili, jo es loti leni kustos. Es sagerbjos, iztiru zobus, uzskasu matus, uzkrasojos un tad noeju lejaa, un ieraugu pulksteni xD un taja bridi es saprotu ka mans autobuss aiziet pec 8 minutem, tad es atri velku savas kedas un pakeru somu, uzlietu austinas un skrienu uz autobusu. Nu sorit es izdomaju ka es visu darisu otradi. Es paedu brokastis, tad sagerbos un iztiriju zobus. Matus es savacu nekartiga astee un acis es vispar neuzkrasoju. No big deal, tikai izskatos loti baala, un neizteiksmiga but who cares? Un par jaunajiem matiem esmu sanemusi komentarus ka smuki izskatas. Ka var taa melot man skatoties acis? Es tacu zinu ka vini ir izpurusi, un pasi isakie mati stav gaisaa, ahaha ;D
Sodienas stundas ir baigi forsaas:
2 francu valodas
Sports
Anglu valoda
Kimija.
ahh ka es neieredzu sportu!!! man sodien nebija sportaterps lidzi.

mm.
My english teacher just told me i must do some work, so i better stop writing. xD
x

josta kuru es nopirku svetdien/

can you guide me all the way

Sveiki, ajjaa jajjaa


 Labi, man ir divi jaunumi: viens ir vienkasribriniskigiprartamneaptverami jauks un otrs ir.. nuuu Just Makes Me Happy, hehe : D
Alrightt es saksu ar otro: Skolaa mani parcela no pasas zemakas grupas (kuraa ir cilveki ar anglu valo. problemam, kuras man nekad nebija, vienkarsi ielika tur uz gadu ja tas bija pirmais gads uk,) uz pasu pasu augsu. Un es itkaa isti nesparotu kaa, man likas ka bija nosakuma jaiet uz vedeejo, lai tiktu pasaa augsaa. Bet anywayys. Manaa klasee iet tas zens kas man kind of patiik. Aprakstisu: Loti gars, es vinam man liekas varetu but lidz pleciem, ;D vinam ir cirkaini mati, vinam ir gitarstunda tiesi pimas manas skolaa.
Pirmais jaunums kas ir vienkarsi wonnderful: Es iemacijos taisit matus ta lai vini ilgi staav kupli. Un uz ilgu. Tatad mans nosleepums: uzkasi pa MAZAI skipsnai un iepuut laku un tad ta kadas 20 reizes. Ahh cik iedarbigi, es to izdariju pirms kadam 4 stundam un veljoprojam kupli.
...Ko te vel par manu dzivi. nekoo, laikam. Ritdien iesu uz 6th Form Tetster Day, kas sakas plkst. 09.30 un beidzas 15.00 kaa skolas diena. Prieks kam tik agri, man bus jacelas ka vienmer 7. Aa, tiem kas nezin un ta laikam ir lielaka dala: 6th Form ir taspats kas koledza tikai Skolaa, ko es nekada gadijumaa neizvelesos, nekada gadijuma sigada beigas pabeigsu skolu un uzreiz projaam, kautvai uz koledzu. xD Gandriz visa Gada grupa (year11) ies, un pec tam gandriz visi ies uz kiino, skattities jauno Hariju Potteru, Es ari domaju par iesanu, bet godiigi: es neesmu parliecinaata jo iepriekseja reize man filmas vidu prasija vai man neesot aizdegusies mati, wtf?

Nedelas dziesma: Confide-This I believe,
Man drosviendriz apniks confide un bus jamekle kautkas jauns, es visu laiku klausos vienu un to pasu lidz man apniik,, un tad pareju uz kautko citu lidz man atkal tas apniik un tad atgriezos pie same old. same oldd ;DD
x

Friday morning teá. Oh nonono!

I feel happy.

Right.

Tagad ir plkst. 09.30. Un es sodien a vienkarsi neaizgaju uz pirmajam divam stundam.

Man vajadzeja pabeigt macities francu val. kurai man sodien ir rakstisanas eksamens.

Un es nedrikstu izgazties, hehe O_o

Sodien ir loti lietains, un i wishhh it was saturtday., Baigi negribas tagad braukt uz

skolu, bet tad kada nozime bija macities visus sos 170 vardus? Tapec es iesu. Lai

gan man vienkarsi un dabiski gribas iekrist gultaa un gulet!

Sodien Saluuts centraa! Bus jaiet. Es laikam iesu ar savu gimeni, jo es pedeja laika

gandriz vispar nepavadu laiku ar savu milo gimeni. Ahhw, man jaiet uz autobussu,

Have a nice ffridday, partyyy xD

you. not me anyways.

x

clouds

man gribas blaut

tikai nav kur,

Es sodien,ka gandriz katru dienu nokaveju skolu. Es nemaz netaisijos iet uz kavetaju klasi, bet ta ka man bija 3 makslas, man bija jaiet garam tur. Es ieraudziju skolotaju kas vada to klasi un tad meginaju paiet garam, ar aciim zemee, un noliektu galvu. Vina pa visu koridooru noblavas: hey you, redhead, yo've got a detention!'

Neveicaas,

Un kad vina teica ka visiem jabut kautkam prieksaa ko lasit, es no somas izvilku savu lielo 700 lpp, gramatu (Ritausma, zini kressla ja? ) un hehe. saku lasiit. xD

Alright, es iesu

Makslaa mes taisam skuplptuuras, man bus balerina

Un majas man pie loga ir beidzot pieliktas ziemassvetku lampinas, un aww, tik jauka atmosfera man ir istabaa. Eieliksu kadu bildi velak.

Sodien Coleg Glan Hafren ir apmekletaju diena. Bus jaiet. :\

aah, attaa

vins ir silts.

Tikko sakas pusdienlaiks, un es sodien laikam neko needisu. man ir kokakola (cocacola? ). Fills me up.
Sodien bija tik briesmigi gruti piecelties. Es visu laiku atliku un atliku celsanos par 5 minutem. Bija tik auksti kad es izlidu no gutas ka es pilnigi triceju. Pirmo reizi uk, pirma lieta ko es no rita izdariju bija:- uzvilku savu skolas uniformu, Par lielo, tumsi zilo, bezformigo dzemperi. Vinam ir tik daudz minusu un tikai vien pluss. VINS IR SILTS.
Es esmu izdomajusi ka man nevajag meteli. Es iztiksu ar skolas dzemperi un melno jaku pa virsu. Pie tam es ziema pusdienlaikaa neiesu ara no telpam, un lielako dalu es pavadu autobusaa jebkura gadijuma.


Pec skolas iesu uz Roath Library, pati vecaka bibleoteka kadu esmu vel Kardifa redzejusi. Vina man patik daudz labak neka centralaa, modernaa, kur gramatu plaukti ir tikai lidz vedeeram, un tas nerada nekadu gramatu noskanu. Bet Roath bibleotekaa plaukti sniedzas pari galvai, ka manuprat tam ir jabut. Man vajag kadu labu gramatu. VAJAG. es nessmu neko labu lasijusi jau ilgu laiku. Tagad es lasu 'Betrayed' kas man liekas ir mazliet garlaicviga. karteja vampiru gramata.
Es iesu uz matematikas klubu tagad. Satikt Luizi, kautgan man nemaz nevajag matematiku. Vienkarsi iesu pie sava vieniga drauga.
redhead.

we dont want to label it,

cau,,
MAN bija liels parsteigums kad es iegaaju sadalaa 'stats' un statistikaa uzradijas ka augustaa vine mana blogaa bija iegajusi 272 reizes!!! un kaada puse taa bija skatijusies vinu no amerikas.. Mm, interesanti,, 'D
nu taa, es veiksu uzlabojumus savam sim blogam un rakstisu biezaak+liksu vairak bildes.
Latvijas bildes man vel nav gatavas, nav bijis laika sataisiit un sagrupet vinas, bet kautkad somenees es vinas pabeigsu,
Pedejas divas dienas ir bijusas katostrofaali lietainas+makonainas+vejainas+aukstas. skolaa man neviens par melnam biksem ar sauriem galiem nepiekasaas, bet piekasaas par to ka man uz kurpeem ir mazas baas sviitrinas, uhh paldies dievam es sodien neuzvilku savas kedas, mani butu savusi nost uz vietas,

mm, jaa, par skolaam, es nenomainiju skolas, jo taja skola kura man vajadzeja iet nepietika vietas jauniem skoleeniem , un vopsem es celos 06.00 no rita 07.00 izeju un skola esmu 08.15.

man vajag nopirkt melnu siltu jaku ar kapuci, jo ta kas man tagad ir melnaa jaka ir tikpat plaana cik mans t-krekls. un savu skolas dzemperi es nevaru atrast, vins kautkur ir izkupeejis, ;9
Man sausmigi daudz majas jamacas tagad, jaraksta anglu valdoa kursadarbs, un man japiestrada pie savas maakslas gramatas jo mums sogad (jaa, 2010) bus janodod, un man tik daudz kas nav pabeigts,
UN, sogad es rakstisu augstako darbu zinaatnee un geografijaa! un iespejams ka matematika, bet par to es vel neko nezinu,
mm, es mazliet par daudz runaju par skolu,
es rit pabeigsu so rakstu man vajag labi izguleties, : )