Breaking routine

It's so light outside. It's midnight but I could see my own reflection in the darkly tainted windows in my garden. It's quite beautiful. The moon is huge, the cats are creeping around the corners of my garden and the bats are flying in circular motions whilst the smoke from my cigarette blows always chaotically. Good evening my friends, I'm having a very peaceful time, sitting in my own bed with standing on the bedside, listening to Lady Grinning Soul. I have become obsessed with Bowie in the past couple of months,so obsessed that I hardly listen to anything else, well apart from Velvet, The Doors and Sinatra.
To-day I woke up downstairs after a beautiful nights sleep with Louise and a cat by my side. MEOW.I don't have a cat no. Louise cycled down my house yesterday and got lost in the horrible tacky roads of St Mellons, and I cycled for rescue though the horrid winds. We did a lame ass quiz thing on her blog (which you should check out, it's awesome click here to read about the life of Louise Lawrence ). Got hungry so we cycled to Tesco and got the ingredients for a pasta Bolognese with bacon.

-Bolognese Sauce
-Pasta

-Onions

-Bacon

-Garlic

And BOOM! Mouthwatering.... I don't know how we managed to, but we put on Kill Bill on Netflix and watched the whole thing, it's a great film of course most Torantion's films are amazing. This is making me want to watch Pulp Fiction again... Anyway, we were so tired because the the night before we were dancing till about 4am, and then going down Morgs and watching some films. Yes that was on the morning of our sleepover day. I couldn't fall asleep at all when we finished Kill Bill, brain overheat I suppose.

But to-day was a great day. After Lou went home, I went to town with my family and we had a family meal out, and then just me and mum went to Diane's Vintage Boutique, got lots of things!



I don't have photos from today, or yesterday but I will pinch a couple of Louise's in my next post.

 The tale of Ewan passing out at 12am at a party. Too much Rum, sir, pirate sir?

 The tale of the sleeping cats and sleep-y aggie

Bed bed cosy bed, cant wait... 

My mums birthday present because I had no money.

My dad 

 

 

 Camera collection:)

Ewan's away in France with his dad's band for the weekend, they are coming back tomorrow, cant wait.
Tomorrow we are all going camping! Should be preparing and packing my tents and by bags but I don't even own a tent and every other girl is sleeping with their boyfriend. Great, well we'll see how it works and whether I'll be sleeping on bare ground fading into the colours of my mind. Should be an adventure.

A waste of sleep

Heya guys,
I am really extremely tired, as I've been going to bed at about 2/3 am every day for no apparent reason, staying out till about 10pm and then waking up again at 6.30. Kills me, truly does.
Today morning I was allowed to stay in bed for longer because I have the morning off at college and so I spent all my early hours listening to the sound of Bowie and the rain against my window, cuddled up with a mug of coffee and I did some photography work in my book.
I have been spending all my time outside home, in college and either filming for media, going on photoshoots or being with Ewan. I have spent so so so much time with him in the past 3 weeks, it's crazy but I still miss him all the time (hopefully he wont see this, because I wouldn't want him to know). We've been having endless movie nights with wine and cuddles, going out for coffees, cinema, walks, talks, and out to gigs. I've met his family and they're all great. His mum is an artist and his dad plays every instrument known. I've also met his little metalhead brothers, his friends and his awesome skinhead ex  girlfriend Lucy. I met his daughter Jaynie as well, who he babysits around twice a week. Now, you'd think that at 17, It would be so extremely weird and scary and unsettling to be seeing a guy with a daughter, but since he is 21 and his ex is also the same age, I don't think it's immature at all like I first thought. And his little girl is amazing, so cute. 5 months old little bubble aw. He loves her so much too.
On Friday we went to Fuel and this other place to listen to some music and then we left and I stayed down his house which is like literally in town haha! We stayed up till 4am watching films (and here he does this really annoying thing where he doesn't look at the tv but he stares at me o_o). So anyway, I woke up on Saturday morning to the most amazing feeling, wrapped in his arms him stroking my back. It was nice haha. I was allowed to have a lay in and we stayed in bed for ages trying to ease our hangovers. I went home around 12 and I was originally going to have my first day of -not doing anything- but I just couldn't help but get out my camera on this really sunny (too sunny if you ask me) November Saturday and phone up Louise. So we did a photoshoot later when it was dark, and I was quite pleased with the results, even though I only did about 100 photos. We got high on our way back and that is probably why I couldn't sleep till 3am again haha.
On Sunday  me and Louise did another photoshoot in Penarth which was really good, so much fun! I did filming for our media music video as well. We were down the Penarth beach in this isolated patch by a high cliff, past the huge rocks in PITCH  DARK! It was so scary because this man came our direction and sat down on this rock around 100 metres from us. I was shitting my pants man! I went to Ewans house again after we were done and afterwards when we were waiting for my bus he said things that made me feel scared and I went mad. Like an asshole (me not him). I was in one of those low low spirits where everything seemed like a waste and crushing into my face and I didn't know what the hell I was doing. 
Me and Josie talked lots yesterday on the phone and we met up for coffee on Sunday as well which was so nice, I feel like we've partly stitched ourselves back together if that makes sense. Not all the way but all the artificiality has disappeared and it feels much more natural.
Also! I got a job at Menkind, which is amazing because I can finally quit mcdonalds! Whoo. I have work experience in Buzz magazine next week though, so I'll have to let them know. It's crazy I can't wait for it! Im stressed anyway, I have so much work to do, the whole applying to uni deal is driving me out of my mind, everyone has already applied and are getting offers. I'm sending mine off tomorrow so fingers crossed I'll be in London or Brighton in September:L.

Anyway, I am actually glad that barely anyone I know reads this blog, I feel like I'm still keeping secrets from the world still. I don't want to be an open book, but I guess I am a little on here.

This is for my art project.

Beautiful Josey for media music video filming.

 Thats over Matts. And I don't actually remember standing in front of his mirror taking a photo! Thats why you should seee it. Because I have the most stupid face ever.

Ridiculously happy Matt

 Halloween.

This is the only photograph I have of Ewan- his hair isn't normally like that. That was my work:L

Here are some of me just now, sorry to trash this with my face but It's 2am, and I literally can't go to sleep so I had to do sumfing.

Louise from Saturday (sorry my blog just run out of image spaces, so I cant upload any more at the moment!)