The Memories Haunt Me and I'm Scared To Forget It All: photographs

I needed/wanted to upload some of the work i have been creating recently, so instead of babbling on about my life I'll just put up some of the pictures. The first series are of my boyfriend Ewan. Though these images I was trying to make him look feminine and challenge the male stereotype (which was hard since he has mustache). And the second series was a photo shoot I did completely spontaneously with Peter, after spending some time with the 'VICE' magazine which I picked up in London. They really do have some inspiring things in there haha!Some of them are too dark, and the quality's gone bad, I don't know why though, I need to buy a better camera! But yeah, I just quickly grabbed him, put my clothes on him, painted him silver and we when on a shoot, during which I had to climb a huge tree (the shot of peter lying on a wheel from above- i nearly fell off when i was taking that haha!) And then I threw in some photos of me from march so far, mostly with my webcam. 
Okay so I'm going back to finishing off this photography journal, for which i only need to write an evaluation and I'm done! Hope you enjoy!
note to self: this time of year is miserable, I am so broke I can't afford to buy ciggies, not even talking about lunch./
note to self : save up money for a crown
note to self: please find a job!

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It's 00.30 and I feel just a little fucking sad. I'm listening to some really sad piano shit and its making me tear up a bit and think why am I even here? I just wanted to message some one who used to be important  to me a long time ago, but I know they've moved on and perhaps I don't even exist in their memory any more. And so I stopped writing, erased my message and turned that music down and decided to never write again. That may seem sad but I think It's easier that way anyway. I'm texting with Josey about how amazing it would be to run away, maybe France, maybe Italy. Anywhere but here, in this bitch hole  I guess. (anyhoo thats obviously not happening right now, just daydreaming haha!)

Tomorrow is my taster day for St Davids college and I feel shit about it. I'm going to wake up extra early, wash my hair get ready and go. After we're going to cinema with Jo I think. 

Last Thursday me, Pippa Ashleigh and Josey went to Bogiez night club and saw this metal gig, that was okay, their screaming was a bit crap. The place was empty anyway, but we got very wasted and it didn't really seem important at the time. I remember Pippa falling down over her goth boots and pulling me down with her which was funny. Also I remember, and have evidence, of texting this guy I like, saying we should hang out, but fuck this he's not putting any effort into it, I'm not going to beg a guy to come for a walk you know?
Then on Friday I baked a cake for Josie :3

On Saturtday I went over her house extra early and we decorated for her party and got ready. It was the greatest birthday party I remember in a long time, we got a little tipsy, smashed a pinata, there was really good music and people and the atmosphere was great.  That night I crashed at Pippa's house which was an hour walk from Jo's house (we walked at 12, wasn't fun I assure you. I kept falling over ) . Slept on the floor. Woke up early on Sunday morning and went home because I had work later at 11. 

Sunday evening Batoul came down! We went to Shisha with a couple people and me and Bats crushed down Jo's house where I again slept on the floor -_- Next morning (this is Monday now) we had a morning in, we watched films and had food and that is all we did. She stayed down mine on Monday, but because she was ill, she fell asleep on my bed, bless her. Today, Tuesday, we went over Cait's house to have a little get together and so much drama formed! I'm not even going to say anything, because we'll it's not for public eye. Me and Josie spend 5 hours in town. We went to Starbucks, and talked for about an hour and then we walked and talked and I comforted her a little. Got home around 8, watched TV and now I'm going to bed,gotta wake up early tomorrow.

I can't be bothered writing any more. This has taken me 15 minutes! I'm really sleepy, but writing on here for a bit calmed me down and made me feel happier. There's photos from Josephine's  birthday which is obviously Wild West theme dress up! The first one is me and her (: