Strangeness of Time

So tired. All my bones really hurt and I feel cold and ill. My room seems so strange as well, I haven't been spending enough time in here, so it's de-aggied and its really plain tidy and cold. i like it but it seems changed. 

Last night me, Pippa and Ashleigh all went to bogiez and i was off my face from only three glasses of whiskey and coke. I couldn't walk straight, I head-banged like crazy and roared my face off at the last band that were playing there. I hadn't eaten all day because I've just been feeling sick all the time.It is probably the reason I got so drunk though. After the gig we went to Burger Kind and waited for Ewan to come pick me up. He even talked to Pippa, which was a first. I was so nervous because she used to hate him but she seemed to have a decent conversation with him which made me happy because I want him to be friends with my friends. 
I missed college in the morning because I couldn't bear it. It was awful, I just turned around and went home. And then around 2, I decided that I can't just waste my day away so I went in for Photography at 3, which ended up being a waste of time anyway. 
So yeah. oh I have so much more to say! My fingers are failing typing right now so I'm going to go to bed and tell the rest tomorrow.
Today I got a horseshoe septum ring, and I just attempted to take some photos on my web camera, so I'll just put them up. I'm going to bed in a minute, so It's just me in my pjs, without any makeup. Managed to look happy in the first picture hah

look so grumpy in the last two pictures :(

brand new

It's 00.30 and I feel just a little fucking sad. I'm listening to some really sad piano shit and its making me tear up a bit and think why am I even here? I just wanted to message some one who used to be important  to me a long time ago, but I know they've moved on and perhaps I don't even exist in their memory any more. And so I stopped writing, erased my message and turned that music down and decided to never write again. That may seem sad but I think It's easier that way anyway. I'm texting with Josey about how amazing it would be to run away, maybe France, maybe Italy. Anywhere but here, in this bitch hole  I guess. (anyhoo thats obviously not happening right now, just daydreaming haha!)

Tomorrow is my taster day for St Davids college and I feel shit about it. I'm going to wake up extra early, wash my hair get ready and go. After we're going to cinema with Jo I think. 

Last Thursday me, Pippa Ashleigh and Josey went to Bogiez night club and saw this metal gig, that was okay, their screaming was a bit crap. The place was empty anyway, but we got very wasted and it didn't really seem important at the time. I remember Pippa falling down over her goth boots and pulling me down with her which was funny. Also I remember, and have evidence, of texting this guy I like, saying we should hang out, but fuck this he's not putting any effort into it, I'm not going to beg a guy to come for a walk you know?
Then on Friday I baked a cake for Josie :3

On Saturtday I went over her house extra early and we decorated for her party and got ready. It was the greatest birthday party I remember in a long time, we got a little tipsy, smashed a pinata, there was really good music and people and the atmosphere was great.  That night I crashed at Pippa's house which was an hour walk from Jo's house (we walked at 12, wasn't fun I assure you. I kept falling over ) . Slept on the floor. Woke up early on Sunday morning and went home because I had work later at 11. 

Sunday evening Batoul came down! We went to Shisha with a couple people and me and Bats crushed down Jo's house where I again slept on the floor -_- Next morning (this is Monday now) we had a morning in, we watched films and had food and that is all we did. She stayed down mine on Monday, but because she was ill, she fell asleep on my bed, bless her. Today, Tuesday, we went over Cait's house to have a little get together and so much drama formed! I'm not even going to say anything, because we'll it's not for public eye. Me and Josie spend 5 hours in town. We went to Starbucks, and talked for about an hour and then we walked and talked and I comforted her a little. Got home around 8, watched TV and now I'm going to bed,gotta wake up early tomorrow.

I can't be bothered writing any more. This has taken me 15 minutes! I'm really sleepy, but writing on here for a bit calmed me down and made me feel happier. There's photos from Josephine's  birthday which is obviously Wild West theme dress up! The first one is me and her (:

Craving creativity

Something Jade drew for Ashleigh- the five of us!
Me on the left, then Pippa, Ashleigh (middle), Jade and Arnisa (right)

 Ok hmmm. hahaha. Oh god, OK, here is my face. It is odd, I must warn you :L
Right now-

 

Yesterday

The day before yesterday

FRIENDS

These are about two weeks old, but I never posted them. Um, so the first six photos are from the bonfire night, when we went over to Alika's house and had a little bonfire evening slash a sleepover. The two photos at the bottom are me and my two lovely, awesome friends on the bus; Arman and Ashleigh; my friend (also Arman's girlfriend) But yeah, he fell asleep and I took photos hahaha.

I'm leaving now, gotta draw up a whole storyboard this evening- much fun. 

Bye

big stars

Okay I'm literally falling asleep here, downstairs but um.. I can put up some pictures from my first days from college? Oh by the way college's fun, I like it so much more than school. Although, I haven't actually started my studies xD We had our induction day and thank god I'm friends with 5 girls from our form. Okay i cant be asked writing any more, so here are some photos of Wednesday when we went to vintage & dress up shops after collage. Star wars and cheap 'criminal damage' clothes. Oh we also went to this cool comic shop. anyways.

 Please people be careful and don't die. Because I saw a dream where my tooth fell out in my hand and it was all 'no big deal' until i asked my mum what it means and she said someone is going to die. So.. Love you.

-listening to 'Parkway Drive- Dead Man's chest- alone downstairs.