Got to walk!

Hi!
I haven't written in a while because I have been quite busy. I feel like skipping school all the time, it's very bad. It all starts with not going to few lessons and ends with me not attending occasionally. I have been put on contract by my media teacher, for three weeks! It's awful, she really doesn't like me very much. Anyhow, last week I did my work experience at Buzz Magazine. I had to work 10-5 every day and I really enjoyed it. Except for, obviously at times I didn't feel like writing anything and my mind closed up. Haha! The only way to overcome that was to just get on with it... I was given around two article titles a day, that I had to write for their website and I also had to go around Cardiff city center, taking photographs of everything that's Christmassy for their website. I spent every lunchtime sitting at Cafe Nero, 30 seconds away from where I worked because it's sooo cold outside! I could have walked around town (it's right in the middle of town, opposite the castle) but after spending 4 hours in a freeezing office by a computer screen, one does not feel like going for a walk. Ewan came by at lunch to keep me company a couple of times when he wasn't working, because he lives like 5 minutes away. 
Yeah so I realized how behind I was with all my schoolwork, so this week I have been staying behind and doing extra work. My deadlines are mostly in the end of January so I don't have to worry too much but still. I need to figure out what I'm doing on my photographs still, because I'm planning to make them sort of abstract. 
We finished our music video in media today! It's all finished and we're all quite proud of it, sooo much work put into it for a four minute outcome- a month of filming and two weeks of editing. 
On Sunday, I went to Bogiez with Ewan, Jack and some other guys. We played pool and had a drink, and I left around 11 because. On Tuesday I had work after school 4-8 which was actually not too bad. Also on Tuesday I went to see Jo after her doctors and hopefully she is allright! We went for a coffee and a talk afterwards. I love Josie, she is amazing! I hope life gets easier for her though, it's been very unfair in the past two years. Hmmm, oh last night I stayed down Ewans house, and we watched Pineapple Express and got high.And then I fell asleep straight away, like always.His house is so much closer to college, I could stay in bed till 8.10 and leave half an hour before my lesson started. 
I dunno what else. Nothing I can recall...I cant wait for Christmas holidays, I hate waking up so early!

A waste of sleep

Heya guys,
I am really extremely tired, as I've been going to bed at about 2/3 am every day for no apparent reason, staying out till about 10pm and then waking up again at 6.30. Kills me, truly does.
Today morning I was allowed to stay in bed for longer because I have the morning off at college and so I spent all my early hours listening to the sound of Bowie and the rain against my window, cuddled up with a mug of coffee and I did some photography work in my book.
I have been spending all my time outside home, in college and either filming for media, going on photoshoots or being with Ewan. I have spent so so so much time with him in the past 3 weeks, it's crazy but I still miss him all the time (hopefully he wont see this, because I wouldn't want him to know). We've been having endless movie nights with wine and cuddles, going out for coffees, cinema, walks, talks, and out to gigs. I've met his family and they're all great. His mum is an artist and his dad plays every instrument known. I've also met his little metalhead brothers, his friends and his awesome skinhead ex  girlfriend Lucy. I met his daughter Jaynie as well, who he babysits around twice a week. Now, you'd think that at 17, It would be so extremely weird and scary and unsettling to be seeing a guy with a daughter, but since he is 21 and his ex is also the same age, I don't think it's immature at all like I first thought. And his little girl is amazing, so cute. 5 months old little bubble aw. He loves her so much too.
On Friday we went to Fuel and this other place to listen to some music and then we left and I stayed down his house which is like literally in town haha! We stayed up till 4am watching films (and here he does this really annoying thing where he doesn't look at the tv but he stares at me o_o). So anyway, I woke up on Saturday morning to the most amazing feeling, wrapped in his arms him stroking my back. It was nice haha. I was allowed to have a lay in and we stayed in bed for ages trying to ease our hangovers. I went home around 12 and I was originally going to have my first day of -not doing anything- but I just couldn't help but get out my camera on this really sunny (too sunny if you ask me) November Saturday and phone up Louise. So we did a photoshoot later when it was dark, and I was quite pleased with the results, even though I only did about 100 photos. We got high on our way back and that is probably why I couldn't sleep till 3am again haha.
On Sunday  me and Louise did another photoshoot in Penarth which was really good, so much fun! I did filming for our media music video as well. We were down the Penarth beach in this isolated patch by a high cliff, past the huge rocks in PITCH  DARK! It was so scary because this man came our direction and sat down on this rock around 100 metres from us. I was shitting my pants man! I went to Ewans house again after we were done and afterwards when we were waiting for my bus he said things that made me feel scared and I went mad. Like an asshole (me not him). I was in one of those low low spirits where everything seemed like a waste and crushing into my face and I didn't know what the hell I was doing. 
Me and Josie talked lots yesterday on the phone and we met up for coffee on Sunday as well which was so nice, I feel like we've partly stitched ourselves back together if that makes sense. Not all the way but all the artificiality has disappeared and it feels much more natural.
Also! I got a job at Menkind, which is amazing because I can finally quit mcdonalds! Whoo. I have work experience in Buzz magazine next week though, so I'll have to let them know. It's crazy I can't wait for it! Im stressed anyway, I have so much work to do, the whole applying to uni deal is driving me out of my mind, everyone has already applied and are getting offers. I'm sending mine off tomorrow so fingers crossed I'll be in London or Brighton in September:L.

Anyway, I am actually glad that barely anyone I know reads this blog, I feel like I'm still keeping secrets from the world still. I don't want to be an open book, but I guess I am a little on here.

This is for my art project.

Beautiful Josey for media music video filming.

 Thats over Matts. And I don't actually remember standing in front of his mirror taking a photo! Thats why you should seee it. Because I have the most stupid face ever.

Ridiculously happy Matt

 Halloween.

This is the only photograph I have of Ewan- his hair isn't normally like that. That was my work:L

Here are some of me just now, sorry to trash this with my face but It's 2am, and I literally can't go to sleep so I had to do sumfing.

Louise from Saturday (sorry my blog just run out of image spaces, so I cant upload any more at the moment!)



Purple Fringe, Go Me

HAHA, yey I dyed my fringe purple <3

And I was a bit bored just now so I decided to give my fringe a little cute, because firstly, it was a bit dead, and split and all that. Secondly, it was too long and puffy, I gotta admit, I didn't look right. And I am sorry, I just took these photos after a shower and with no make up on so I don't look very pretty *laughs* Also I apologise that I look so weird in them, I can't help it! I just can't look at a web cam with a straight face. :3
Hmmm. I think I'll put up my other photographs tomorrow (not the web cam ones, the ones from school) because I don't like loading my blog full of photographs on the same day.
Anyway. Today was really really cold, and I froze, not nice. I got off at Tesco to get my tobacco and for the first time ever I didn't get served in St Mellon's! I was really pissed off, pardon me, but I was late for my lesson, I was freezing, I didn't get my tobacco and it started hailing- I was not happy. It was so nice though, apart from the cold. It was really dark outside and at 9am it felt like 5pm, which if you hadn't noticed is really dark!
I was a bit late for my film class, but because it's the last session with Dave, he let us watch a film. So yes, we watched Submarine. It is beautiful, you should really watch it. It is a Welsh film (proud) and its been filmed Penarth which technically is in Cardiff, and Swansea. Anyway, it was a really low budget film, but I think it was magic. The cinematography of it is brilliant. Oh fuck, pins and needles in my left leg OUCH. Literally can't move it.. Aw whatever, I'll just leave it for a minute.
We finished out class an hour early so me and my friend Matt, went to AJ's and got ourselves a hot chocolate, yum. We chilled there for a bit and Pippa joined us at twelve. I was third wheeled again. I always hang with them in AJ's, so I don't feel the awkwardness of the two of them making sexual jokes and kissing, haha. 
So then after two nice hours sat at AJs I went to my media class and I was just basically filling up myself with tons of free chocolate that Naomi (out media teacher) brought us. After 20 minutes she let us go and gave us homework to do over half term, year so basically 2 magazine covers. And A storyboard fro Film, I forgot to mention.
Awhhh, I'm craving a cigarette, so goodnight. :p

MONDAY

I've finished most of my homework and have a bit of spare time to write a little post on here.

On Monday's I'm in Trowbridge campus which is only 20 minutes away from my house, so today I woke up just in time and everyone had left the house already. I got myself a coke, turned on my laptop and put on some Nirvana music. Then did the usual morning shite: brush teeth, get dressed, put on makeup, coffee and a cigarette.

So my art class was fine, Barry (our life drawing model) came in as usual, but this time we had to use acrylic paint, which I'm totally not used to because we've been using pencil and chalk mostly. And the last time I used acrylic was GCSE, to drawing this Ladies face. It's quite a big drawing as well, like A2, I think. Anyway, I had my camera in today so I took a photo of my painting, so you can see (unfinished, sadly. I took the photo halfway through, when we had a break). At break me and Cecelia, the Swedish girl, went to the canteen to get tea. We then came back to our art studio, and sat down by the radiator eating clementines and drinking tea, because we were freezing. Yes it is so so very cold outside ^_^

After my art class I went to the learning centre to work on my media coursework, because my photography class was cancelled. I almost finished my contents page for the magazine and the cover is ready. Well I think it is, I'll show it to my teacher tomorrow and see what she says.

After 3 hours of sitting by the computer in Trowbridge I decided to go home. So yeah. I am now home. Hihi, I had some food and I will now carry on reading Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, because it's great! I'm so glad I finished all my work for tomorrow (:

Random photo of me in the morning.

On my way to college

 A girl in my art class

Cecilia, the swedish girl in my art class (If you don't remember her, she's the one I was eating clementines with)

My art studio

On my way home

A cat, yes.

Media coursework: Contents

 Media Coursework: Magazine cover

  

My unfinished painting. I just wanted you guys to meet Barry, cuz he's great.