weirdos on the streets

Hey!

This is day one of me being by myself and i kinda like it. I've moved downstairs because I have a TV, table, bed, toilet and kitchen here soo its much better. It's kind of lonely being by yourself but I feel so independent. I get to go Tesco and shit :D okay. Um. 

I'm sitting in bed with a knitted jumper and how socks and I'm watching Garfield. It's 00.30 atm, and I have tomorrow's morning off, because my Media teacher has a meeting or something.

Today was okay, I had my first Art&Design lesson. Well basically what happen today was at 05.30 i woke up and i threw on my skinny pants and a hood and walked my lovelies to the bus stop and my mums last words were: 'Please don't get any piercings while I'm away, I'll check!' And that's how she went. It's pretty funny taking that I don't even have any piercings, except my ears and a stretcher in my ear. 

Well then I went back to sleep at around 6 and I forgot to set my alarm... I woke up at 8.30 and then I realised that I have college, so I just threw some clothes on grabbed my bag and with yesterdays makeup I ran to the stop and cached a 45. I got off in Trowbridge and run to the college. I then spent like 15 minutes looking around because I coudn't find the art studio. Bleshhhedf. Well I found it and spent the next 3 and half hours doing live drawing of a sculpture. I bought a sketchbook. At break, I didn't know anyone and I was in a terribly bad mood so I didn't speak to anyone, I just went to cafeteria and got myself a cup of tea. Then a Swedish girl Courtney (from Stockholm) sat next to me in cafeteria and she told me how she's an exchange student here and how it's all awesome and she's got a job in Hollister's clothes store. Umm, my class finished at 1 (and normally classes finish at 12 and then you have an hour of lunch break) and so i didn't have lunch, I ran to the stop and cached a bus into town. I got off @ City Road campus and literally flew to my Photography class where I got lectured how its bad to be so late. nevermind. 

I only have WBQ (Welsh Baccalaureate) and that's it. I don't know what I shall be doing tomorrow. I don't want to come home straight form college... haha Josey is coming down my house either this Wednesday or Friday, so yey.  And we're supposed to be going to a gig thing on Friday too (they play metal, rock  and indie music) and I might ask Ashleigh, Jade and Pippa to come down my house on Friday too, so we could go to the gig together & sleepover down mine. Jade is 18 so we'll have no problem getting alcohol.

Okay bye. 

There are so many of me, Jo didn't put most of her pictures up :| I'm going to hit her with a pillow

12 and 13

wooo, my day was soo boring. I think people went to the food fest in cardiff bay, but I don;t know about that...So like I said my day kinda sucked.
Basically what happened today was, I woke up and looked around the room. At first I didn't get where I was and how the hell I got there and then it all slowly came to me. I'm in my living room, and this sofa really sucks and my but hurts and why am i awake at 9am haha xD But yeah, I went to sleep downstairs because there were bloodsuckers in my room, and they all decided to suck my blood out of my neck.
I got ready and left my house 11ish and I finally went to the charity shop to volunteer. WOO. And then I went all around shops and things, looking for the perfect pink 'barbie' dress and i didn't find anything xD I was exhausted and just gave up. And sooo, I went to Blue Banana and got myself a blue hair dye haha. I went home and literally ran upstairs got the dye, dyed my hair, showered, washed my hair and almost started crying xD it was soo.... blue :D And then Sep called and I was gonna go over his house to Newport but my mum had changed her opinion about it. In her mind me+boy=rape. I'm actually being serious. Whenever I'm going out and there are boys, I can see it in her face, she thinks I'm gonna get either kidnapped or raped, it's kind of getting on my nerves, but well, whatever. I got to stay home and chilllaxxx Ha, I didn't do anything, just watched Friends on TV, because now I have Virgin fucking Media and I have crappy channels and nothing at all to watch xD 
WOO I CANT BELIEVE MY HAIR'S BLUE!!!
Ohh by the way, I found a pink dress! In my own closet! I was so shocked, but yes I do remember it. It's the 'criminal damage' one. I guess I'm going to have to wear that. Josie's birthday is going to be really fun. It's pink themed and woo its gonna be amazing. I'm going to buy her a present sometime this week. I think I might know exactly where to go ^_^
Oh, I just asked my mum why she always has that feeling when I'm with boys and she said that her best friend got raped by 4 boys :oo that is just... wow. awful awful awful. I dont know what to say. I guess I really don't know anything about my mum's past. Or her friends. Or her youth. Or nothing. I'm very curious.
oh myyy, I didn't have anything to do for the rest of the day, so i took some pictures of my brand new freak head, to keep you up-to-date my blog whaaalllaahhh

 

23.05.2011

I hate how blogger doesn't have a 'dashboard' written when your blog is open, its kinda annoying because you have to press 'new post' and only then dashboard.
I complain a lot, don't I...
I hate how i used to be so bother about school and getting good grades couple of years ago, and you know, even last year but now when i should be bothered the most, I'm seriously not bothered. I barely do ANY studying.
I had a nightmare about my mum last night, I saw her getting drunk (Its weird because I have never in my whole life seen her drunk) and leaving me. She said she hated me. And I woke up this morning and I looked all around my house looking for my mum and brother or anyone and how no one was there, and I almost started crying, when I remembered it's Monday and they're all gone. Oh i just really wanted to talk to someone but my mum didn't answer her phone.
I've been having a lot of 'mental' nightmares lately. I saw a talking horses head in a dark, shadowy room the other night. I cant remember now exactly what else I saw but I remember there were sweaty Chinese men doing joga. Ooh yes and I also saw telling my mum about the horse in her room but she didn't believe me and I found myself (it's still the dream you guys) holding my green 'friendship' t-shirt and shaking it and shouting at it 'why don't you understand' or something like that. There were like other million things in my dream but I cant remember what. I think I also saw two boys from out school and it gave me creeps. My nightmares and even dreams are always messed up, you know all over the place. One second your in one place and then second later you are in a totally different place.Bloody hell, it was weird. Also the stupid thing is that I was only taking a nap, and I woke up and I felt like I knew how it feels to be mental. Literally. I was covered in sweat so I took a shower and it made me feel a bit better. You know I wrote lyrics (just words more like, i hate calling the stuff i write poetry or lyrics because i feel like its neither)  about the nightmare i had, and i might edit it and rewrite it a bit and put it on here.
If we're talking about nightmares, a week ago I saw myself by a pretty lake and i was drawing it and then this motorcycle came by and the guy wanted to rape me but then suddenly a van appeared and a boy in it saved me. And the next moment after getting in the van, i fins myself in a living room drinking tea but it all feels wrong.
anyway I didn't even mean to write all this, haha. ok.
I'm planning to go to school today at lunch.
 bye.

p.s. my new haircut :p

sorry for my weird face expressions, i just couldnt be bothered to make a pretty face. Just to let you know, I cut the lenghth myself because the hairdresser cut way too less than she should've. yes i knwo what your thinking, 'who cuts their hair after going to a hairdresser?'