Grrr

      Everybody has gone swimming, I couldn't go because I'm a lazy girl and I just got up!!! Grrrrr! I completely couldn't get to sleep last night, my back hurt and I just couldn't get photography and Francesca Allen out of my head. Silly I know, I just kept thinking back on how well she has done in Photography since graduating LCC, and the only thing that is stopping me is me, and the fact that I just need to work myself to the bone when I get back to uni. shoot shoot shoot! Also couldn't stop thinking about the camera I'm buying on payday, a lovely Canon T90! It's the stuff, really, has so many different functions and great reviews. But its heavy, around a kilogram. I am going to get two lenses for it and a flash upon my payday! And best of all it's all going to work out pretty cheap!! Ok sorry, not going to spent my post talking about cameras..
       I've moved back home to Cardiff by the way. Like end of June. I've been here for about  month, to be honest feels longer. I spend my days working (though barely, just had three days off), lazing about at Ewan's or at home. We try to do stuff but it's hard, I still have no money because I've been waiting for my pay and Ewan barely gets work from the agency. So we went to Barry beach, on Saturday with his mum Elizabeth and Jaynie to watch his dad Chris, who played jazz at the seafront. We ate packed sandwiches, dinky donuts, ice cream and drank wine (out of the bottle which Elizabeth was a bit outraged). And then Sunday when it was just really miserable all day, we took Jaynie to the museum. :)
       Other than that, the weathers been shitty for a while, its quite cold- typical Welsh summer. But perfect for indoorsy things, like yesterday I met up with Louise and we went to develop film, chilled in her loft room and then went for a coffee/hot chocolate at #Coffee 1.
       Well the days are kind of slow, and I try to do as many things as I can, even though I intended to do so many more (like already had read a book or two). I'm slowly reading. Slowly creating projects in my head. Slowly documenting everything I do with my Trip. And sitting on the internet. A lot.

      Here are some snaps from a BBQ I had with my parents and Ewan the other week, and the rest are pictures I did when I was bored at Ewans house.

First week of hometime

This day has started well, with my massive 128GB SDXC card arriving on time. I was worries Amazon are going to mess up and I was going to get my order days after it's meant to come. After all, that is the luck I can expect, especially when you need it the most. I'm excited about today. A couple of days ago Ali, manager from Snappy Snaps called my up and asked if I could take  pictures at a Turkish wedding! Not my ideal photography job, but it's only for six hours, and pays quite nicely cash on hand, considering I've never done paid photography work. Gosh, I hope this doesn't trap me with wedding photography forever, that is my one big fear. 
What else is new. My uni starts tomorrow, we're doing a briefing lecture. I should have really started jotting down ideas for our new project 'Personal Manifesto', which is very very broad and can be anything. But it has to have some kind of a meaning. I struggle with this, but I'm sure I can get into it and actually maybe start getting myself into that conceptual photography mindset, after all I'm stuck with it for three years! 
On Friday I finally went to a photography repair shop in Soho, to check how much it'd be to fix my lovely Canon a1 manual camera. It's such a great camera, I only paid £100 pounds for it but I have a feeling to fix it would be very expensive. I have to ring back tomorrow and they'll tell me the price.
Oh, Steff moved out! Incredible news, she actually moved out. Me and Sofie were sat in the living room, having dinner while steff loaded all of her stuff out of the house. Obviously it had to be dramatic. She had pulled out all the draws in her room and chucked them across the floor, the closet was in the middle of the room and the clothes rail was upside down. Still nothing beats how happy we all were. I've decorated the living room as well, it looks a little nicer than before, we just need to wash the dishes, oh there are so many and it's disgusting. On Friday me Esmee, Sofi and Robyn and two other boys had a little celebration, we had so much fun dancing downstairs. I took lots of photos  on my camera which I'll upload in another post. All these photos are from my Samsung phone. I've found an amazing app, Fotor I would really recommend it, it's all you want from an editing tool! So mostly the photos are from around the New Cross I've taken, and the house and some of myself and other people. Enjoy ma lovelies!

Have a lovely day,

I'll Post Soon,

Cherry

Pamadoooori

Haven't felt like blogging this week. On the weekend I went to Bristol with my lovelies, we went to a night at Motion - Apex Collective. I'll post pictures when I have them which should hopefully mean on Sunday, as today I'm going to uni in the morning to see if I can process them. This weekend all I'm doing is work to be honest, making money for all my expenses. I also have something quite exciting to announce, hopefully but I don't know fo sure till next week so won't say anything. 

Um today I'm returning some camera equipment to uni, and then I have to finish doing my xmas shopping which I'll do before I go into work at 4pm, probably go Oxford Street to do it because it's by my work. 

Hmm. Not much else to say. I've lost my better Asus phone. Again, oh pity.

Stormy sky across my bedroom ceiling

It's the 23rd of December! Sooo. Hmm.
It's half one in the morning and I'm awake in my bed with a laptop and all the social networking sites on.
I've been feeling confuused lately. About everything, parents, work, education, lovers, friends, feelings. OKAY that IS literally everything... I feel like I'm doing shit in work, picking the wrong lovers, feeling like my dad doesn't care much, feeling like I've been forgotten and slowly erased. Oh god, anyway.
So this morning I woke up at two hours late for work which overall made me three hours late! Was meant to start at 9am, but got in for 12! At lunch I got a salad form Boots and then got a coffee and wasted about half an hour refueling my energy levels with more caffeine. Menkind surely wont keep me on, I am very shit at my job. Not kidding. Every time a customer asks me something I go over to people with the same job title as me and ask them the question. I am useless! An I can't sell anything like helicopters and stuff. All my other peers sell about 5 a day and I've sold two this week alone. So I had work till 9pm and forgot my umbrella at work which meant that I had to walk to my stop through that wildly storm that's happening in UK right now.
What else has happened this week. Hmm. Well on Thursday Jack, Nil and Ewan came and picked me up from my work and then we went to get high over Jacks. They were all drunk because they've been to bogiez before and I was not happy, being the only sober person wasn't fun at all. But because it was meant to be the last day of the world I got very high and then went back to Ewans around 2 in the morning.
On Friday I did most of my Christmas shopping with the money I borrowed from my mum and I did it within two hours because I couldn't concentrate properly, so now tomorrow on my only day off between now and Christmas I am going to go and exchange most of them.
I am also supposed to be starting my Christmas to do list tomorrow, so fun fun. I also might be going out with Kaiya from photography class, but were not set.
What is really annoying is the fact that I am working on Christmas eve and boxing day, both 9 hour shifts... But boxing day is double pay so I just couldn't say now when they asked me to cover, It'll be a £64 in my pocket for 8 hours of work:L 
In this post I shall just post some pictures of my room and of my art project as those are the only ones Ive got:) (I took photos of my room because it's finally TIDY! )
That's all:) Bye lovelies,