I have a new background, as promised I'm changing it every Sunday.
I know I haven't posted anything in a week. That is because I've had a miserable week and it's been really tiring. Most of the week I felt like... You know when you don't feel anything, you're just blank all over. Well sort of like that. I skipped some of my lessons to go home and sleep, that's how awful it was. I never skip lessons in college.
On Friday I was going to drop film studies because of the workload I'm getting, but once again I ended up leaving the classroom, after the 'im going to quit this subject' discussion, still as a film studies student. Dave is just so nice, he offered me help and said I was doing really well. I'm just going to have to suck it up and do all the work. This weekend has been one big analysing/sticking in/ etc in my photography book. I'm sorta tired. Yesterday I spent 6 hours, and I only managed to do, well not so much.
On Friday I also went to the pub with Josephine and Jamila, even though I didn't want to. The pub was full of people I didn't know and had never seen in my whole life. Normally I would have talked and whatnot, but because I just felt tired of trying (and failing) to feel good, I ended up feel anxious and having a nice cry in the dark corner of the pub with a glass of drink, on my own with my own thoughts. I wasn't the only one having thoughts full of anxiety, Rhi (you can see her in the pictures) started crying and we talked for a while. I couldn't really cheer her up because I was half crying myself but she was fine in the end. I could so relate to everything she said.. Well anyway, that one drink got me really tipsy and I was walking down City Road swearing to myself and not walking straight.
I spoke to Josie on the phone yesterday and she is doing something terrible... She is going to set me up with a guy I have never met in my life and it's like a... Blind date? oh god, its going to be so awkward. I'm probably going to end up talking rubbish because that's what I do when I'm nervous.
I know I haven't posted anything in a week. That is because I've had a miserable week and it's been really tiring. Most of the week I felt like... You know when you don't feel anything, you're just blank all over. Well sort of like that. I skipped some of my lessons to go home and sleep, that's how awful it was. I never skip lessons in college.
On Friday I was going to drop film studies because of the workload I'm getting, but once again I ended up leaving the classroom, after the 'im going to quit this subject' discussion, still as a film studies student. Dave is just so nice, he offered me help and said I was doing really well. I'm just going to have to suck it up and do all the work. This weekend has been one big analysing/sticking in/ etc in my photography book. I'm sorta tired. Yesterday I spent 6 hours, and I only managed to do, well not so much.
On Friday I also went to the pub with Josephine and Jamila, even though I didn't want to. The pub was full of people I didn't know and had never seen in my whole life. Normally I would have talked and whatnot, but because I just felt tired of trying (and failing) to feel good, I ended up feel anxious and having a nice cry in the dark corner of the pub with a glass of drink, on my own with my own thoughts. I wasn't the only one having thoughts full of anxiety, Rhi (you can see her in the pictures) started crying and we talked for a while. I couldn't really cheer her up because I was half crying myself but she was fine in the end. I could so relate to everything she said.. Well anyway, that one drink got me really tipsy and I was walking down City Road swearing to myself and not walking straight.
I spoke to Josie on the phone yesterday and she is doing something terrible... She is going to set me up with a guy I have never met in my life and it's like a... Blind date? oh god, its going to be so awkward. I'm probably going to end up talking rubbish because that's what I do when I'm nervous.
Oh and here'a something I painted during the week.
And here's the pub.
Me and Rhi.
Otis
Rhi and Josephine :)
Enjoy the rest of your weekend (:
you and Rhi?
ReplyDeleteI see only Rhi : ( and black box on your face. : (
Piedod, es tur nevisai labi izskatijos >_< hihi
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