Insomnia

Still struggling to sleep. God only knows how, but my head just cant seem to turn off. I hope I'm like this tomorrow night. Meanwhile I'll probably smoke all of tobacco in bed and stare at the ceiling pointlessly. Sweet Dreams x

insomnia says goodnight.

 

Breaking routine

It's so light outside. It's midnight but I could see my own reflection in the darkly tainted windows in my garden. It's quite beautiful. The moon is huge, the cats are creeping around the corners of my garden and the bats are flying in circular motions whilst the smoke from my cigarette blows always chaotically. Good evening my friends, I'm having a very peaceful time, sitting in my own bed with standing on the bedside, listening to Lady Grinning Soul. I have become obsessed with Bowie in the past couple of months,so obsessed that I hardly listen to anything else, well apart from Velvet, The Doors and Sinatra.
To-day I woke up downstairs after a beautiful nights sleep with Louise and a cat by my side. MEOW.I don't have a cat no. Louise cycled down my house yesterday and got lost in the horrible tacky roads of St Mellons, and I cycled for rescue though the horrid winds. We did a lame ass quiz thing on her blog (which you should check out, it's awesome click here to read about the life of Louise Lawrence ). Got hungry so we cycled to Tesco and got the ingredients for a pasta Bolognese with bacon.

-Bolognese Sauce
-Pasta

-Onions

-Bacon

-Garlic

And BOOM! Mouthwatering.... I don't know how we managed to, but we put on Kill Bill on Netflix and watched the whole thing, it's a great film of course most Torantion's films are amazing. This is making me want to watch Pulp Fiction again... Anyway, we were so tired because the the night before we were dancing till about 4am, and then going down Morgs and watching some films. Yes that was on the morning of our sleepover day. I couldn't fall asleep at all when we finished Kill Bill, brain overheat I suppose.

But to-day was a great day. After Lou went home, I went to town with my family and we had a family meal out, and then just me and mum went to Diane's Vintage Boutique, got lots of things!



I don't have photos from today, or yesterday but I will pinch a couple of Louise's in my next post.

 The tale of Ewan passing out at 12am at a party. Too much Rum, sir, pirate sir?

 The tale of the sleeping cats and sleep-y aggie

Bed bed cosy bed, cant wait... 

My mums birthday present because I had no money.

My dad 

 

 

 Camera collection:)

Ewan's away in France with his dad's band for the weekend, they are coming back tomorrow, cant wait.
Tomorrow we are all going camping! Should be preparing and packing my tents and by bags but I don't even own a tent and every other girl is sleeping with their boyfriend. Great, well we'll see how it works and whether I'll be sleeping on bare ground fading into the colours of my mind. Should be an adventure.

Saucepan and Socks

ok. me being lame. 

The Memories Haunt Me and I'm Scared To Forget It All: photographs

I needed/wanted to upload some of the work i have been creating recently, so instead of babbling on about my life I'll just put up some of the pictures. The first series are of my boyfriend Ewan. Though these images I was trying to make him look feminine and challenge the male stereotype (which was hard since he has mustache). And the second series was a photo shoot I did completely spontaneously with Peter, after spending some time with the 'VICE' magazine which I picked up in London. They really do have some inspiring things in there haha!Some of them are too dark, and the quality's gone bad, I don't know why though, I need to buy a better camera! But yeah, I just quickly grabbed him, put my clothes on him, painted him silver and we when on a shoot, during which I had to climb a huge tree (the shot of peter lying on a wheel from above- i nearly fell off when i was taking that haha!) And then I threw in some photos of me from march so far, mostly with my webcam. 
Okay so I'm going back to finishing off this photography journal, for which i only need to write an evaluation and I'm done! Hope you enjoy!
note to self: this time of year is miserable, I am so broke I can't afford to buy ciggies, not even talking about lunch./
note to self : save up money for a crown
note to self: please find a job!

Strangeness of Time

So tired. All my bones really hurt and I feel cold and ill. My room seems so strange as well, I haven't been spending enough time in here, so it's de-aggied and its really plain tidy and cold. i like it but it seems changed. 

Last night me, Pippa and Ashleigh all went to bogiez and i was off my face from only three glasses of whiskey and coke. I couldn't walk straight, I head-banged like crazy and roared my face off at the last band that were playing there. I hadn't eaten all day because I've just been feeling sick all the time.It is probably the reason I got so drunk though. After the gig we went to Burger Kind and waited for Ewan to come pick me up. He even talked to Pippa, which was a first. I was so nervous because she used to hate him but she seemed to have a decent conversation with him which made me happy because I want him to be friends with my friends. 
I missed college in the morning because I couldn't bear it. It was awful, I just turned around and went home. And then around 2, I decided that I can't just waste my day away so I went in for Photography at 3, which ended up being a waste of time anyway. 
So yeah. oh I have so much more to say! My fingers are failing typing right now so I'm going to go to bed and tell the rest tomorrow.
Today I got a horseshoe septum ring, and I just attempted to take some photos on my web camera, so I'll just put them up. I'm going to bed in a minute, so It's just me in my pjs, without any makeup. Managed to look happy in the first picture hah

look so grumpy in the last two pictures :(

graveful of pretty

Soul frozen
For eternity 
Heart painted silver, so cold so beautiful.

Boy boy, to trust your heart of ecstasy,
Gently lean against my back and whisper in my ear,
''Come Away With Me''

So I feel it in my drunken heart, true words of purity,
Wasted so wasted,
Running wild into nothingness with our vision flying high.
Boy boy, for me to love i need something more
I don't write love songs
They're songs of death
Noises that hurt you deep inside,
You'll see and you'll know.
Sniff, drop, smoke, smell the air
I feel so close to you
Feels like heaven ,
Keep me close to your heart
Let's decay like this together.
In love with the idea of death and hell, 
Cuz baby you know heaven won't come easy
So lets run to a place,
Where you can take me, consume me, use me, love me, rest on my shoulder with everything you have got. 
Lets hide our sins from  the gods above.
Boy boy, lets take a rest 
Let's lie below a million lights

Falling though a world of monsters

And into the brightest light, 
We stay here quietly,

Timelessly,
For eternity,
Or till the morning reality comes crushing down.


I've got my septum pierced.
I'm on contract in college.
I have a million things to do.
So, this is like a shot summary haha,

and this is me without makeup right now. Ive just been doing so much art today, i'm nearly falling asleep, so tired...

see you laters lovelies:)

PHOTOGRAPHS I HAVENT UPLOADED!

Just ignore this post if your not interested in my imagemaking (:
(the festival photos will be up soon, I just didn't want to completely stuff my blog with photos. Also sorry so sorry theres so much of me in the post :p )