What does 'using your time wisely' even mean?

Wow, I'm sitting here in complete transs. This song, is just amazing... A new song by Velvet Underground-Candy Says that I've just only dicovered on a playlist. Yes, listen to it, and think. It makes me think about future and possobilities, which is kinda ironic, since I think that the song title hints to cocaine use. But somehow it makes me think of the things I could do with my time in life. I don't think we are meant to find purpose in life. I think that the purpose of life is just to live it, isn't it? I was discussing this with Louise, we had a nice conversation about it in the skate park, near my house, about the meaning of life, the way we spend our time, what we do and how we feel,  and what is the point of feeling or doing certain things we choose to do.

Today, I actually didn't waste away my time. Louise rang me and then came down mine and we cycled to Tesco's to get cigarettes. On our way back we stopped at the skate park for a while  just to sit down and talk. Later, we rode bikes down to Morgan's where we stopped for a bit before we went to Flower Gardens to play basketball (but didn't because the courts were taken) so we just sat down in the grass while Louise and Morg played football, Doob and Dylan were taking photos of each other and Josie was lying with her head on my lap. Such a nice evening. I cycled back to mine around 9pm, which killed me (yep, going uphill for most of it) and I stopped for a ciggie break after 40 minutes of riding, near our college- i dont think having a cigarette helped my short-breathness though. When I got home, and got off my bike I was so ehxausted, I don't know how I made it all the way to my house, high...

I really can't wait to go Camping on Sunday! Haven't been camping in so long, should be tons of fun:)
I've got some photos too. I stopped so many times in St Mellons on my way back, the sky was beauuuutiful!

Morgan

In Action :)

The pretties of local shits.

Josieee

Doob and Morg.

My room at the moment. I was doing some drawing before blogging, with Salvador Dali's book open in front of me, waiting for the inspiration or some sort of ideas to hit me.

And here is Velvet Underground- Candy Say's. Listen.

Stormy sky across my bedroom ceiling

It's the 23rd of December! Sooo. Hmm.
It's half one in the morning and I'm awake in my bed with a laptop and all the social networking sites on.
I've been feeling confuused lately. About everything, parents, work, education, lovers, friends, feelings. OKAY that IS literally everything... I feel like I'm doing shit in work, picking the wrong lovers, feeling like my dad doesn't care much, feeling like I've been forgotten and slowly erased. Oh god, anyway.
So this morning I woke up at two hours late for work which overall made me three hours late! Was meant to start at 9am, but got in for 12! At lunch I got a salad form Boots and then got a coffee and wasted about half an hour refueling my energy levels with more caffeine. Menkind surely wont keep me on, I am very shit at my job. Not kidding. Every time a customer asks me something I go over to people with the same job title as me and ask them the question. I am useless! An I can't sell anything like helicopters and stuff. All my other peers sell about 5 a day and I've sold two this week alone. So I had work till 9pm and forgot my umbrella at work which meant that I had to walk to my stop through that wildly storm that's happening in UK right now.
What else has happened this week. Hmm. Well on Thursday Jack, Nil and Ewan came and picked me up from my work and then we went to get high over Jacks. They were all drunk because they've been to bogiez before and I was not happy, being the only sober person wasn't fun at all. But because it was meant to be the last day of the world I got very high and then went back to Ewans around 2 in the morning.
On Friday I did most of my Christmas shopping with the money I borrowed from my mum and I did it within two hours because I couldn't concentrate properly, so now tomorrow on my only day off between now and Christmas I am going to go and exchange most of them.
I am also supposed to be starting my Christmas to do list tomorrow, so fun fun. I also might be going out with Kaiya from photography class, but were not set.
What is really annoying is the fact that I am working on Christmas eve and boxing day, both 9 hour shifts... But boxing day is double pay so I just couldn't say now when they asked me to cover, It'll be a £64 in my pocket for 8 hours of work:L 
In this post I shall just post some pictures of my room and of my art project as those are the only ones Ive got:) (I took photos of my room because it's finally TIDY! )
That's all:) Bye lovelies,