Sunday morning wake up call

Good evening
Today was a little bit of a waste, I woke up and didn't do much till about 3. Was meant to do all my homework as it's the only day I actually have free dues to college and work but I ended up just taking Peter to McDonalds and then going to Blockbuster afterwards. I'm pretty much working 24 hours a week plus college, which basically means that on Wednesdays, Thursday, Fridays and Saturdays I don't get home till 12am at night. I hope they don't give me manic hours this Christmas because I have so much work to do its crazy depressing, no social life for me at all! I'm pretty much doing my Christmas Shopping on the 24th because that when I get paid and I'm praying that I'm not booked in for that day because when the hell am i doing my xmas shopping then!
I need to hand in my Personal Investigation as well on top of everything else, and I didn't even know about it till last week, because I haven't been to my tutor in months. Trouble trouble. 
Tomorrow I'm going in early to do media and then I'm meeting Ewan for a coffee before my photography lesson. I am literally staying behind till 9 or whenever the room closes because I'm just going to do lots of art research in my book and editing for Photography. I need to get as much done as possible before half term (which I CAAAANT WAIT FOR!) so that the practical stuff is out of the way and I only have essays to do. But I don't think it's likely with me having so many shifts... 
Okay, well I'll just post some photos form what is called 'lately' so that this isn't just about me complaining about woooork and schoool. 

 The new poster I got from Tate, on my wall.

These are all just webcam photos from today, me and Peter being silly. And yes I know I look like a child without makeup:] 

I bought this postcard for Ewan, even though I'm pretty sure he won't appropriate it as much as I do haha.

And this is a lovely quote.

  All Sneaky snapshots form Tate above (except the postcard).

Halloween

On Friday (oh forgot to mention, we went out after work to Bogiez and Fuel till 2 am which wasn't a great idea because I had to work all next day hungover... )

 This was Today actually, maccy d's, got free balloons!

 This weird surrealist collage I'm doing for Photography. This is just a crappy version which isn't set up and this is taken with my phone.

Just random snaps

Halloween again

London form when I went to Batoul's in October.

unimportant

I'm sooo tired!
So, I skipped school yesterday! Again! I was feeling shit after staying down Ewans before, so we went all the way to college for media, only to walk in and turn back and leave. I was going to go home, have a lie in but I ended up going to Penarth to Joe's house. I honestly swear that was the last time I am ever going to miss school when I'm not on a deathbed.
Today I had art, and I went in an hour early to do extra work. I love art this year! Anyway, after college around 4.30 I decided to walk all the way to Newport road, on the coldest day of this year... It was so foggy I almost got lost as I never walk that way. I got home, had a bath, read some books, slept for a little and helped Peter with his art homework. That is all. I don't actually know why I decided to bother to come on here and write something. It's an unimportant day anyway. So incase I don't come on here for another month or so, tomorrow I have work 2-11, after college in the morning, which is going to kill, and then the next day I have to London trip to Tate and Summer set House (I'm not sure this is how you spell it) for which I'll have to wake up at 5.30. Nevermind. Goodnight cuties, have a lovely day x
p.s the only photos I've got at the moment:L 

Got to walk!

Hi!
I haven't written in a while because I have been quite busy. I feel like skipping school all the time, it's very bad. It all starts with not going to few lessons and ends with me not attending occasionally. I have been put on contract by my media teacher, for three weeks! It's awful, she really doesn't like me very much. Anyhow, last week I did my work experience at Buzz Magazine. I had to work 10-5 every day and I really enjoyed it. Except for, obviously at times I didn't feel like writing anything and my mind closed up. Haha! The only way to overcome that was to just get on with it... I was given around two article titles a day, that I had to write for their website and I also had to go around Cardiff city center, taking photographs of everything that's Christmassy for their website. I spent every lunchtime sitting at Cafe Nero, 30 seconds away from where I worked because it's sooo cold outside! I could have walked around town (it's right in the middle of town, opposite the castle) but after spending 4 hours in a freeezing office by a computer screen, one does not feel like going for a walk. Ewan came by at lunch to keep me company a couple of times when he wasn't working, because he lives like 5 minutes away. 
Yeah so I realized how behind I was with all my schoolwork, so this week I have been staying behind and doing extra work. My deadlines are mostly in the end of January so I don't have to worry too much but still. I need to figure out what I'm doing on my photographs still, because I'm planning to make them sort of abstract. 
We finished our music video in media today! It's all finished and we're all quite proud of it, sooo much work put into it for a four minute outcome- a month of filming and two weeks of editing. 
On Sunday, I went to Bogiez with Ewan, Jack and some other guys. We played pool and had a drink, and I left around 11 because. On Tuesday I had work after school 4-8 which was actually not too bad. Also on Tuesday I went to see Jo after her doctors and hopefully she is allright! We went for a coffee and a talk afterwards. I love Josie, she is amazing! I hope life gets easier for her though, it's been very unfair in the past two years. Hmmm, oh last night I stayed down Ewans house, and we watched Pineapple Express and got high.And then I fell asleep straight away, like always.His house is so much closer to college, I could stay in bed till 8.10 and leave half an hour before my lesson started. 
I dunno what else. Nothing I can recall...I cant wait for Christmas holidays, I hate waking up so early!

hope

Literally had the biggest freak out moment last night. Well, me and Peter stayed up watching films till 1am, and then he went to sleep, so I stayed downstairs tidied up, had a ciggie and i was gone. I couldn't fall asleep so I kept twitching and turning in my bed. And then. Suddenly, as I turned form lying on my back to my left side, I felt this little lump go from my right armpit down right into my.. breast. I was trying to find the lump then but I couldn't. Anyway it hurt as well. What the fuck? I actually started crying, that freaked me out so much. I ran downstairs to get my laptop and stayed up till 3am googling breast cancer early signs and symptoms. I had that lump there before, a couple of months ago and it hurt a lot, but i didn't see a doctor or anything. Apparently there is only a 0.5% chance of getting a breast cancer under the age of 20, but I matched two symptoms.  Plus I don't know it this one's a symptom but it said 'loss of appetite &weight loss' and my mum commented yesterday that I look like I've lost weight in the last week. I don't know is thats because I didn't eat much at the festival or because its a symptom? Well, I woke up at 11 this morning which was too late to book a doctors appointment, so I guess I'll just do it one Monday.

On a more positive note, It's 4pm, and I woke up at 2. 2!!!! What? I usually wake up around 10, no matter what time I go to bed. So yeah, this day has been running. I'm just in bed reading right now. Also, my hair is dip dyed a light lavender colour. And my fringe. 
God, i really need to do something! I'm running out of things to do in this house. I might go volunteering tomorrow.
Oh also also... Can you SMELL the autumn?! It's amazing, I can smell it and feel it and it's getting colder! I'm so happy, I don't like summer very much, it's boring and hot. 
I forgot to mention anything on my blog about my A level results! They're okay, I got BCBB! Film, Media and Photography are B's and Art is a C. I'm quite happy, but I am SO pushing myself in photography this year. Watch me.

And While I'm at it, I'll post some photos form the band shoot a did a little while ago and also Louise's shoot. 

Breakdown

I have a new background, as promised I'm changing it every Sunday.
I know I haven't posted anything in a week. That is because I've had a miserable week and it's been really tiring. Most of the week I felt like... You know when you don't feel anything, you're just blank all over. Well sort of like that. I skipped some of my lessons to go home and sleep, that's how awful it was. I never skip lessons in college. 
On Friday I was going to drop film studies because of the workload I'm getting, but once again I ended up leaving the classroom, after the 'im going to quit this subject' discussion, still as a film studies student. Dave is just so nice, he offered me help and said I was doing really well. I'm just going to have to suck it up and do all the work. This weekend has been one big analysing/sticking in/ etc in my photography book. I'm sorta tired. Yesterday I spent 6 hours, and I only managed to do, well not so much.
On Friday I also went to the pub with Josephine and Jamila, even though I didn't want to. The pub was full of people I didn't know and had never seen in my whole life. Normally I would have talked and whatnot, but because I just felt tired of trying (and failing) to feel good, I ended up feel anxious and having a nice cry in the dark corner of the pub with a glass of drink, on my own with my own thoughts. I wasn't the only one having thoughts full of anxiety, Rhi (you can see her in the pictures) started crying and we talked for a while. I couldn't really cheer her up because I was half crying myself but she was fine in the end. I could so relate to everything she said.. Well anyway, that one drink got me really tipsy and I was walking down City Road  swearing to myself and not walking straight. 
I spoke to Josie on the phone yesterday and she is doing something terrible... She is going to set me up with a guy I have never met in my life and it's like a... Blind date? oh god, its going to be so awkward. I'm probably going to end up talking rubbish because that's what I do when I'm nervous.

             Oh and here'a something I painted during the week.

 And here's the pub. 

Me and Rhi. 

Otis 

Rhi and Josephine :)

 Enjoy the rest of your weekend (:

Two lovebirds in a deathbed

Hey.

Well it's going pretty well with me, I'm all happy and ready to go. Be an Agnese_GOGO.

I am having doubts about life. I feel like I'm going to end up an unsuccessful old woman with no love in a nowhere house drinking tea with no sugar. I am thinking maybe to swap all my subjects to ones like Psychology, Business and English. Should I? Maybe I should. My Photography teacher hates me and I figure I'm really crap at photography somehow. If I get my photos on my USB i could post them up here. 

I haven't blogged in a while, I could fill you in a bit.

Last weekend I went to Jamilas birthday party and it was in Newport, well basically I got lost on my own in Newport and couldn't find my way anywhere. Jamila called me and told me her boyfriends mum would come pick me up so I just lied on a bench and looked at the stars. 

Down the empty house we watched xfactor for an hour until Arman got there and then everyone got drunk. I got drunk for the first time of my life and I couldn't keep my balance and I felt like I loved literally loved everyone. I know that I kissed Jo on lips because she was wondering what I'm like, so haha,  we kissed. Tehe I just realised, everyone in college tells me, I have to cosiest hugs ever and Jo told me I'm a really good kisser and Pippa form college said that If she was a lesbian then I would be her first choice. Is there something homosexual about me? Oh yes and Alika. said something too. I dont like drinking really, next time im not going to drink :L I prefer smoking, gee i smoked so much last saturtday. i was like i a machine XD

Nevermind. Well basically then me and Josie went upstairs because we were tired so we just had a nap in the bed upstairs and then the guy who lives in the house came into the bedroom (21, Dave) and started hitting on Josephine and he lied next to us. Horny old man :L Altogether I slept on the floor without a pillow and without a duvet because Arman also joined us in the end and it was too sticky and hot. I lost my top so had to go in the pajama top.On Sunday i slept until 6pm.

Harrison asked me to come to his gig again this time it's in Cardiff in Buffalo Bar. They're called Raphealites, i think, not sure. But there's a really good band playing with them on Friday too, they're called HOLD YOUR HORSE IS.  I am going and I am taking Josephine with me! Tomorrow I'm going down hers to get ready and then we're going together. Then we are going down mine because she's sleeping over. On Saturday I am (I think) going to a different gig with girls from college. And on Sunday I'm planning on staying home and finishing off my artwork because i have quite a lot piled up. I would have done it today but i couldn't find anything for my research on Internet so I'm borrowing a book in library. 

I stretched my ear to 8mm yesterday with no pain and struggle, go me!

SORRY I WAS BORED ^_^

uuh and that at the top is me in the 'BAY SHOOT' with my photography group.

weirdos on the streets

Hey!

This is day one of me being by myself and i kinda like it. I've moved downstairs because I have a TV, table, bed, toilet and kitchen here soo its much better. It's kind of lonely being by yourself but I feel so independent. I get to go Tesco and shit :D okay. Um. 

I'm sitting in bed with a knitted jumper and how socks and I'm watching Garfield. It's 00.30 atm, and I have tomorrow's morning off, because my Media teacher has a meeting or something.

Today was okay, I had my first Art&Design lesson. Well basically what happen today was at 05.30 i woke up and i threw on my skinny pants and a hood and walked my lovelies to the bus stop and my mums last words were: 'Please don't get any piercings while I'm away, I'll check!' And that's how she went. It's pretty funny taking that I don't even have any piercings, except my ears and a stretcher in my ear. 

Well then I went back to sleep at around 6 and I forgot to set my alarm... I woke up at 8.30 and then I realised that I have college, so I just threw some clothes on grabbed my bag and with yesterdays makeup I ran to the stop and cached a 45. I got off in Trowbridge and run to the college. I then spent like 15 minutes looking around because I coudn't find the art studio. Bleshhhedf. Well I found it and spent the next 3 and half hours doing live drawing of a sculpture. I bought a sketchbook. At break, I didn't know anyone and I was in a terribly bad mood so I didn't speak to anyone, I just went to cafeteria and got myself a cup of tea. Then a Swedish girl Courtney (from Stockholm) sat next to me in cafeteria and she told me how she's an exchange student here and how it's all awesome and she's got a job in Hollister's clothes store. Umm, my class finished at 1 (and normally classes finish at 12 and then you have an hour of lunch break) and so i didn't have lunch, I ran to the stop and cached a bus into town. I got off @ City Road campus and literally flew to my Photography class where I got lectured how its bad to be so late. nevermind. 

I only have WBQ (Welsh Baccalaureate) and that's it. I don't know what I shall be doing tomorrow. I don't want to come home straight form college... haha Josey is coming down my house either this Wednesday or Friday, so yey.  And we're supposed to be going to a gig thing on Friday too (they play metal, rock  and indie music) and I might ask Ashleigh, Jade and Pippa to come down my house on Friday too, so we could go to the gig together & sleepover down mine. Jade is 18 so we'll have no problem getting alcohol.

Okay bye. 

There are so many of me, Jo didn't put most of her pictures up :| I'm going to hit her with a pillow

big stars

Okay I'm literally falling asleep here, downstairs but um.. I can put up some pictures from my first days from college? Oh by the way college's fun, I like it so much more than school. Although, I haven't actually started my studies xD We had our induction day and thank god I'm friends with 5 girls from our form. Okay i cant be asked writing any more, so here are some photos of Wednesday when we went to vintage & dress up shops after collage. Star wars and cheap 'criminal damage' clothes. Oh we also went to this cool comic shop. anyways.

 Please people be careful and don't die. Because I saw a dream where my tooth fell out in my hand and it was all 'no big deal' until i asked my mum what it means and she said someone is going to die. So.. Love you.

-listening to 'Parkway Drive- Dead Man's chest- alone downstairs.