12 and 13

wooo, my day was soo boring. I think people went to the food fest in cardiff bay, but I don;t know about that...So like I said my day kinda sucked.
Basically what happened today was, I woke up and looked around the room. At first I didn't get where I was and how the hell I got there and then it all slowly came to me. I'm in my living room, and this sofa really sucks and my but hurts and why am i awake at 9am haha xD But yeah, I went to sleep downstairs because there were bloodsuckers in my room, and they all decided to suck my blood out of my neck.
I got ready and left my house 11ish and I finally went to the charity shop to volunteer. WOO. And then I went all around shops and things, looking for the perfect pink 'barbie' dress and i didn't find anything xD I was exhausted and just gave up. And sooo, I went to Blue Banana and got myself a blue hair dye haha. I went home and literally ran upstairs got the dye, dyed my hair, showered, washed my hair and almost started crying xD it was soo.... blue :D And then Sep called and I was gonna go over his house to Newport but my mum had changed her opinion about it. In her mind me+boy=rape. I'm actually being serious. Whenever I'm going out and there are boys, I can see it in her face, she thinks I'm gonna get either kidnapped or raped, it's kind of getting on my nerves, but well, whatever. I got to stay home and chilllaxxx Ha, I didn't do anything, just watched Friends on TV, because now I have Virgin fucking Media and I have crappy channels and nothing at all to watch xD 
WOO I CANT BELIEVE MY HAIR'S BLUE!!!
Ohh by the way, I found a pink dress! In my own closet! I was so shocked, but yes I do remember it. It's the 'criminal damage' one. I guess I'm going to have to wear that. Josie's birthday is going to be really fun. It's pink themed and woo its gonna be amazing. I'm going to buy her a present sometime this week. I think I might know exactly where to go ^_^
Oh, I just asked my mum why she always has that feeling when I'm with boys and she said that her best friend got raped by 4 boys :oo that is just... wow. awful awful awful. I dont know what to say. I guess I really don't know anything about my mum's past. Or her friends. Or her youth. Or nothing. I'm very curious.
oh myyy, I didn't have anything to do for the rest of the day, so i took some pictures of my brand new freak head, to keep you up-to-date my blog whaaalllaahhh

 

you're hiding under my bed

haiii
uugh it's really weird, writing on this laptop, I'm really used to my own. The buttons on my mum's laptop are spread out, and I'm making hundreds of mistakes haha.
I'm watching Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets, It's one of my favourite parts. I can't wait to see the last movie, it's going to be so good. ahh, You know what I miss? When I was 12 and 13, I went to a Harry Potter summer camp, it was soooo fun xD I used to like LOVE harry potter. I had two shirts haha.
Oh I never had a chance to tell you how fun my bbq/sleepover was. Well, it was amazing. Although next time I want it to be a little bit cosier, I just want to sit in a pile of cushions, smoke shisha, look at stars, talk about life with my friends and hold Sep's hand. That would be perfect. But it was amazing anyway. Boys got really annoyed when we started the waterfight. But it was sooo fun. Although I kinda got hit in the face and got a nosebleed xD and then I locked myself in my bedroom with two tampons in my nose and i just waited for it to stop. I looked too weird to show my face haha. That night I got another three nosebleeds, and Josie got two.
Me, Josie, Alika and Tia just talked all night long on my trampoline. And then it started to get light and I was SO SUPER excited about the sunrise omg xD You wouldn't believe. But yeah. Later Arman joined us on the trampoline. Maddie and Sep were watching Lizzie Mc'Guire inside, haha they are so cute. >_< I can't believe they were best friends. Their personalities suit each other a lot, so I'm not surprised they were best friends. They made this funny dub step song too, haha it's hilarious. But yeah, everything was lovely. Later they came out and joined us on the trampoline and Charlie came too. So.. there you go. All of us lied on my broken trampoline, squashed and sweaty but yet happy and warm.
Boo.
I went out with Sep today, woo. It's just I felt really crappy. When I woke up, my mood was like. Really bad, I complained about EVERYTHING, and my mum was like 'whats wrong, whats wrong?' ahhhwww, well I was just having one of those awful days when everything seems awful and stupid and weird and my head hurts, and i have a fever xD I wish I wasn't so awful today. But anyway, me and Sep went cinema to see 'Bad Teacher'. And then we walked down to Hilton and I walked him to his bus stop and cached a 45 myself. By the time I got home I felt a lot better and decided that I'll go and smoke shisha rather than stay home and do nothing. So I changed my clothes, yh haha I change them like 3 times a day, and went down to the City Road and this time it was just girls, Me, Caitlin, Josie and Alika. It was really nice, we just chilled and talked about summer. Yay they're going to the Relentless Brodmasters (dude, it think that's how you call it xD) and that is like the ONLY festival I wanted to go to, this summer. I cannot believe they're going. haha I was like 'There's this cool festival in Cornwall... blah blah... we should go.' and they were like 'yess we already have tickets xD''
omfg this post is so long haha :L
Ohhh Kane's mum rang me today and she  told me that I'm going to haave my first photoshoot next weekend, It think. She said she'd meet up with me to have coffee (haha my first ever 'business' coffee) and we'll talk over it. I think I'm gonna have to take pictures in this event... I dunno, but she said that she'd tell me more later.
Aww, I've missed like half of the Harry Potter, gonna rewind it now. 
Here's some picturesss yo guys. they're crappt tho, because they're phone photos. bye :) xx

i washed my hair and i'm feeling high

Aw I need to go to Tesco, I need to buy beer and snacks and burgers and sausages for tomorrow's bbq. By the way I had a horrrible dream, that everyone came down mine a day early and i was telling everyone to go home but they, like, didn't hear me. And then I was really loud, and someone (can't remember who, I think it was Josie :D ) said to me 'But it is monday'. And then there was this little river right in my garden and it started to rain and everything flooded. Plus on top of all I wasn't prepared at all, I mean no food, no music, nothing. They just sat in the middle of my garden in a cosy circle and I was left out :D so weird.
Oh I went to Newport yesterday with Sepp, and he showed me around (you wouldn't believe me haha, I've never been to Newport :D). We walked down the main street and then other... main streets. : D And oh meeen, then we got tired and we sat on the grass under a tree because it was so hot outside. And then we went to the, um, park. I can't remember its name. And we sat under a tree again, and it was fun, but I annoyed him because I wasn't showing him the pictures on my phone and... Then some two random drunk guys were walking past and shouting stuff so we just walked down to the big Tesco express and Mc'Donalds, in which i didn't eat anything. Again, because I', a veggie. Oh no Sep got me a Mc'Flurry- smarties.
And then a bit later I got to meet Sep's friends. They were really nice but um, I didn't speak much.. I don't know why. I just never speak straight away, because I'm... Just weird that way haha. But they were really nice. I'm so crap at remembering names though :D I remember two people's names out of what's it... Four. xD I'm crap.
OMG haha, my nose started bleeding yesterday when we were waiting for Davie. I hate nosebleeds, whenever the sun comes out my nose starts bleeding...
I have to... Shave the grass today. Ups i meant, like to cut the grass...I don't think that's how you call it though. Damn, well you know what i mean. And I want to play my guitar loads. Aw I'm so sleepy. I drunk my tea in like 5 seconds. I need to buy new shoes cuz i made a hole in my blue ones, and my evey pair of converse also has holes, fuck this xD

too lazy for anything

I looked weird today, I was wearing two different converses because I couldn't decide. HAHA nobody noticed until like three hours later.
Barry beach was cancelled today and we ended up going down Arman's house, lucky me. It's like 5 minutes away, really rare, because i usually take hours to get anywhere :D So there was Alika, Josie, Arnisa, Me, Lloyd and Arman. We watched this really gross movie called 'Human Centipede' It was just wtf, it was so bad and gross that it was even kinda funny. Somewhere towards the end of the film Lloyd and Arman had the most silly argument ever with Arnisa about whether or not putting up a tent in Blackweir park and staying there overnight is called camping. And then she left, and I felt really awkward because i didn't know what to do and what to say. All the girls ran out after her but I don't really know what to say in situations like these, plus I don't exactly know Arnisa, so I just stayed inside with Lloyd and Arman, It's kinda weird to fight over a thing like that.
awww man, I've been writing this for like three hours. i have so much more to say tho... I'm soo tired. I've been chatting with Sep the whole time >.&lt; He's so cute, I think I kinda like him. But everything's happening so fast, I'm not following it :D  Like I'm a bit confused that's all, but i know that I feel happy which is good. It's like I don't know him at all (if you think about it in general) but then it feels like I do. And that's what confuses me. But you know after the shisha garden thingy, yesterday we ended up holding hands and it felt right. But like my head is shouting at me 'why so fast?'
I'm being weird now ahaha
I can't wait to see the new Harry Potter movie:) But even more I can't wait to go cinema tomorrow with Sep. >.< Aww fuck this i like him. dot dot dot. whatever. I wanna hold his hand. Aw shuush im so stupid aren't I
bye

saturtday

Hi!
I'm having one of those 'lazy sundays' for like the fifth time this week, except today really is a Sunday :D
Anyway. Well, yesterday was Armans birthday and we went to a Mexican restaurant but i was already fullll because i had a XL pizza with my parents. I bought Arman a card (they should really start making something less girly, pinky, blue'ey, and teddy bear'y because it's not like boys don't have birthdays) and I went to his birthday party. Oh meen you wouldn't imagine how hard it was to leave my house. You'd think it's easy but not if you're me. On my way to bus stop I was trying to make up excauses why not to go, and i came up with everything from 'i look ugly today' 'my hair is dirty' to 'there's no point' 'bus is going to be late' and 'i'm cold'.
I'm so annoyed  with myself, why do i always stay home. I mean, I really should've gone to prom, but I made up so many excauses that I actually didn't see any point in going.
Blaaawhh, anyhow, his birthday was fun. There were loads of people. What happened:
-I met three new, awesome people
-Josie didn't know how to flush the water in toilets and so she was being paranoid the whole time.
-um, Arman drunk the most disgusting drink ever, (ketchup, spit, salt, pepper, coke, lemon etc )
-Arnisa came 2 hours late
-Alikas food took ages to cook.
lol, what a list xD sorry it's nothing exciting
Um then we went to a shisha garden and smoked for an hour or so.
Then I realised that I had to go home and Orenta and Sep (I think I spelled these right) were also going. We said goodbye to Arman and walked together down to the Newport Road. They're quite awesome. Orenta is from Lithuania which is cool. She doesn't look or sound it. Um Sep is from... Actually I don't know, but he's cool too. He kept hugging me and booing into my ear >.< I love hugs, people should hug eachother more. Oh haha I remembered something, I kinda fell of the chair in that shisha garden thingy. And this Arab kept asking me questions like 'is this your naturar hair colour?' and 'Do you want to share my shisha with me?' and other creepy stuff. =] creeped me out a bit.
Anyway I got home around 11, and nothing exciting happened. Except well, I was sitting in my bed and there was a massive spider on my leg and everyone was asleep (this was around two o'clock at night) and I kinda screamed. I didn't know what to do so I went outside in my garden for a bit and I thought whether or not I should go back xD So i just went back and crushed in the bed, forgetting about the spider. I bet it was still in my bed, gosh i hope i didn't eat it : D
Camping is off :/ yh sad, but if we were going there would only be like 4 of us..
nevermind.
My blog is annoying me, I can't upload any pictures.
damn i hate you blogspot, i wish i'd never started you. tumblr is so much better.