This, is about you

Okay I'm just doing my Media homework. I actually have quite a bit of homework piled up. Two drawings, and analysis in Art. I have to find and analyse 3 landscape photographers work, have to analyse the trailer of the Independence day and lastly i have to do some worksheets for my WBQ. I have film tomorrow and I'm hoping Dave wont give us much to do. 

I gotta do Media for tomorrow so I'm gonna do it now.

You know two door cinema club is quite good. I thought its a bit overrated because they post it on tumblr like every five minutes but nooey.

Haha i got sold cigarettes in that shop by my college today. Lucky me.

I was fifteen minutes late for my Media lesson this morning but oh well. I just have to make sure im not late again. Anyway, we had a half an hour break around 10.30 and so me Alice and Holly went outside for a cigarette and then that guy I've been looking at for past couple of days came up and hugged me and said 'Gonna hold her real tight' to Alice, or something like that. Then I asked him how his gig was and stuff. um. I then went to AJ's coffee shop across the street and got regular Americano coffee with hot milk. I came back and I had to stop twice to talk to Ash and Jordan and by the time I made it back to smoking area, Alice and Holly were gone and that guy was sitting on his own. When I was going over to him, his very pretty girl friend came along and I just kind went and stood by myself in the farthest corner. Thank god Ashleigh cam along and I could just stand there and finish my coffee. 

I want to write something. Get my emotions out.

Ough... Ive been feeling sick of life lately. I hate eating somehow. I just don't like food. I pretend I like food when I'm around people, but I don't actually enjoy it. I think I've lost my appetite in the last couple of months. And I am really, and I mean really lazy to cook. Coffee is real nice though, keeps you warm inside.

okay some shit i wrote i think sometime Friday at 2am. This came to my head while standing outside in my garden and looking at things that at first sight you cannot see but as your eyes get used to dark you can spot very well. naah

Feel the gentle breeze on my skin
Breathe in breathe out
Look in the sky and find the brightest star
Breathe in breathe out
Your eyes, your sad looking lonely eyes
Breathe in breathe out
The shape of your lips pulled in a half smiling shape
Breathe in breathe out
A sharp feeling in my chest
Breathe In breathe out
Close my eyes and think of your face
I breathe in Breathe out
Wrap the blanket tighter around my shoulders
Breathe in breathe out
Thinking of you
Sip sip the cold coffee
Breathe the cigarette in breathe out
Wind whirling, half dancing around the trees
Breathe in breathe out
I look around
I breathe in slowly, In and then out
And I can see your face
Again and again in my mind
Breathe in
Slowly open the door
I breathe out one this last time.

Do you ever get that 'I want to stay under my bed covers this whole day' feeling? I'm kinda feeling like it these days. And by these days I meant Monday and today. 

I hate the sun, go away.

Painful but beautiful

Atnacu majas, fiziski slikti, gribas vemt, nezinu kapec... Man vajag izpildit majasdarbus, fiziku es daleji pabiedzu vel tikai anglu valoda un matematika palika. Baigi gribas gulet, tapec laikam tulit iesu pagulet, tad pabeigsu macities, un mazliet paspelesu gitaru, man ir jaiemacas dziesma: Many Of Horror- Biff Clyro. Loti vienkarsi tikai man mazliet jauztrenne roka 'Bm' akordam. Sodien gandriz pabeidzu  kursadarbu fizikaa, un pec skolas gaju uz zinatnes klubu lai pabeigtu savu projektu: 'Should Cannabis be legalised?' Tikai man aizgaja divas ar pus stundas..
No rita baigi bija es aizutiju Armanam iszinu lai vins nak uz pieturu un tad vins neatnaca, un tad vins atsutija iszinu ka jau nak, un es izskapu pie Tesco lai iekaptu nakamaja autobusa kura vins teica ka bus, un tad es iekapu 44 un vina nebija. Tad man atkal nacas kapt ara nakamaja pietura, un es beidzot vinu satiku 45, no rita iznak ar 3 autobusiem braucu. Mes braucam lidz centram un tad skrejam pari ielai un kapam 27 lai tiktu lidz skolai. Patiesiba tik atri iznaca, mes nokavejam skolu tikai 15 min.
School was fun, mes ar Batoul'u gajam no fizikas uz kautkurieni pusdienslaika un tad mes gajam garam klasei uz kuru iet visi kas kave skolu uz 20 min, un mus ieraudzija un lika palikt tur. Tad mes gribejam ielavities Mrs. Gaskell'es (taa briesmigaa, druasmiga, bailiga skolas parvedeja) lai es varetu nociept manu jaku kuru vina man atnema piektdien. Kamer Batoula dezureja koridorii, es rebelis ieskreju un jaku dabuju. Velak skolas kafiterija es ieraudziju vinu dezurejam un pajautaju vai es varesu dabut atpakal savu jaku, just in case un vina bija briesmigi jauka un teica lai es ienaku pec 10 minutem pie vinas pec tas jakas. Un tad man neatlika nekas cits kaa likt Batoul nakt ar mani lidz vinas offisam un nolikt vinu atpakal. 
mmm. aa, es sodien ieraudziju savu skulpturu!!! Manai balerinai krutis ir iespiestas uz ieksu un veders ari ta riktigi! Skolotaja teica ka izgriezis caurumu aizmugure kartonam un tad izbidis no iekspuses iesistas dalas. Es laikam rit panemsu majas visus A2 makslas darbus un pabeigsu, jo i have to hurry up.
Pec skolas bija ta bish tumss un lietains un vejains, un bija tik forsi iet lidz Newport Roadam ar kajam, es riktigi izbaudiju. Man bija galigi vienalga ka man noteikti notecejusas acis, bija loti jauki, especially with music in my ears.
cau.

we dont want to label it,

cau,,
MAN bija liels parsteigums kad es iegaaju sadalaa 'stats' un statistikaa uzradijas ka augustaa vine mana blogaa bija iegajusi 272 reizes!!! un kaada puse taa bija skatijusies vinu no amerikas.. Mm, interesanti,, 'D
nu taa, es veiksu uzlabojumus savam sim blogam un rakstisu biezaak+liksu vairak bildes.
Latvijas bildes man vel nav gatavas, nav bijis laika sataisiit un sagrupet vinas, bet kautkad somenees es vinas pabeigsu,
Pedejas divas dienas ir bijusas katostrofaali lietainas+makonainas+vejainas+aukstas. skolaa man neviens par melnam biksem ar sauriem galiem nepiekasaas, bet piekasaas par to ka man uz kurpeem ir mazas baas sviitrinas, uhh paldies dievam es sodien neuzvilku savas kedas, mani butu savusi nost uz vietas,

mm, jaa, par skolaam, es nenomainiju skolas, jo taja skola kura man vajadzeja iet nepietika vietas jauniem skoleeniem , un vopsem es celos 06.00 no rita 07.00 izeju un skola esmu 08.15.

man vajag nopirkt melnu siltu jaku ar kapuci, jo ta kas man tagad ir melnaa jaka ir tikpat plaana cik mans t-krekls. un savu skolas dzemperi es nevaru atrast, vins kautkur ir izkupeejis, ;9
Man sausmigi daudz majas jamacas tagad, jaraksta anglu valdoa kursadarbs, un man japiestrada pie savas maakslas gramatas jo mums sogad (jaa, 2010) bus janodod, un man tik daudz kas nav pabeigts,
UN, sogad es rakstisu augstako darbu zinaatnee un geografijaa! un iespejams ka matematika, bet par to es vel neko nezinu,
mm, es mazliet par daudz runaju par skolu,
es rit pabeigsu so rakstu man vajag labi izguleties, : )