Strangeness of Time

So tired. All my bones really hurt and I feel cold and ill. My room seems so strange as well, I haven't been spending enough time in here, so it's de-aggied and its really plain tidy and cold. i like it but it seems changed. 

Last night me, Pippa and Ashleigh all went to bogiez and i was off my face from only three glasses of whiskey and coke. I couldn't walk straight, I head-banged like crazy and roared my face off at the last band that were playing there. I hadn't eaten all day because I've just been feeling sick all the time.It is probably the reason I got so drunk though. After the gig we went to Burger Kind and waited for Ewan to come pick me up. He even talked to Pippa, which was a first. I was so nervous because she used to hate him but she seemed to have a decent conversation with him which made me happy because I want him to be friends with my friends. 
I missed college in the morning because I couldn't bear it. It was awful, I just turned around and went home. And then around 2, I decided that I can't just waste my day away so I went in for Photography at 3, which ended up being a waste of time anyway. 
So yeah. oh I have so much more to say! My fingers are failing typing right now so I'm going to go to bed and tell the rest tomorrow.
Today I got a horseshoe septum ring, and I just attempted to take some photos on my web camera, so I'll just put them up. I'm going to bed in a minute, so It's just me in my pjs, without any makeup. Managed to look happy in the first picture hah

look so grumpy in the last two pictures :(

Got to walk!

Hi!
I haven't written in a while because I have been quite busy. I feel like skipping school all the time, it's very bad. It all starts with not going to few lessons and ends with me not attending occasionally. I have been put on contract by my media teacher, for three weeks! It's awful, she really doesn't like me very much. Anyhow, last week I did my work experience at Buzz Magazine. I had to work 10-5 every day and I really enjoyed it. Except for, obviously at times I didn't feel like writing anything and my mind closed up. Haha! The only way to overcome that was to just get on with it... I was given around two article titles a day, that I had to write for their website and I also had to go around Cardiff city center, taking photographs of everything that's Christmassy for their website. I spent every lunchtime sitting at Cafe Nero, 30 seconds away from where I worked because it's sooo cold outside! I could have walked around town (it's right in the middle of town, opposite the castle) but after spending 4 hours in a freeezing office by a computer screen, one does not feel like going for a walk. Ewan came by at lunch to keep me company a couple of times when he wasn't working, because he lives like 5 minutes away. 
Yeah so I realized how behind I was with all my schoolwork, so this week I have been staying behind and doing extra work. My deadlines are mostly in the end of January so I don't have to worry too much but still. I need to figure out what I'm doing on my photographs still, because I'm planning to make them sort of abstract. 
We finished our music video in media today! It's all finished and we're all quite proud of it, sooo much work put into it for a four minute outcome- a month of filming and two weeks of editing. 
On Sunday, I went to Bogiez with Ewan, Jack and some other guys. We played pool and had a drink, and I left around 11 because. On Tuesday I had work after school 4-8 which was actually not too bad. Also on Tuesday I went to see Jo after her doctors and hopefully she is allright! We went for a coffee and a talk afterwards. I love Josie, she is amazing! I hope life gets easier for her though, it's been very unfair in the past two years. Hmmm, oh last night I stayed down Ewans house, and we watched Pineapple Express and got high.And then I fell asleep straight away, like always.His house is so much closer to college, I could stay in bed till 8.10 and leave half an hour before my lesson started. 
I dunno what else. Nothing I can recall...I cant wait for Christmas holidays, I hate waking up so early!

brand new

It's 00.30 and I feel just a little fucking sad. I'm listening to some really sad piano shit and its making me tear up a bit and think why am I even here? I just wanted to message some one who used to be important  to me a long time ago, but I know they've moved on and perhaps I don't even exist in their memory any more. And so I stopped writing, erased my message and turned that music down and decided to never write again. That may seem sad but I think It's easier that way anyway. I'm texting with Josey about how amazing it would be to run away, maybe France, maybe Italy. Anywhere but here, in this bitch hole  I guess. (anyhoo thats obviously not happening right now, just daydreaming haha!)

Tomorrow is my taster day for St Davids college and I feel shit about it. I'm going to wake up extra early, wash my hair get ready and go. After we're going to cinema with Jo I think. 

Last Thursday me, Pippa Ashleigh and Josey went to Bogiez night club and saw this metal gig, that was okay, their screaming was a bit crap. The place was empty anyway, but we got very wasted and it didn't really seem important at the time. I remember Pippa falling down over her goth boots and pulling me down with her which was funny. Also I remember, and have evidence, of texting this guy I like, saying we should hang out, but fuck this he's not putting any effort into it, I'm not going to beg a guy to come for a walk you know?
Then on Friday I baked a cake for Josie :3

On Saturtday I went over her house extra early and we decorated for her party and got ready. It was the greatest birthday party I remember in a long time, we got a little tipsy, smashed a pinata, there was really good music and people and the atmosphere was great.  That night I crashed at Pippa's house which was an hour walk from Jo's house (we walked at 12, wasn't fun I assure you. I kept falling over ) . Slept on the floor. Woke up early on Sunday morning and went home because I had work later at 11. 

Sunday evening Batoul came down! We went to Shisha with a couple people and me and Bats crushed down Jo's house where I again slept on the floor -_- Next morning (this is Monday now) we had a morning in, we watched films and had food and that is all we did. She stayed down mine on Monday, but because she was ill, she fell asleep on my bed, bless her. Today, Tuesday, we went over Cait's house to have a little get together and so much drama formed! I'm not even going to say anything, because we'll it's not for public eye. Me and Josie spend 5 hours in town. We went to Starbucks, and talked for about an hour and then we walked and talked and I comforted her a little. Got home around 8, watched TV and now I'm going to bed,gotta wake up early tomorrow.

I can't be bothered writing any more. This has taken me 15 minutes! I'm really sleepy, but writing on here for a bit calmed me down and made me feel happier. There's photos from Josephine's  birthday which is obviously Wild West theme dress up! The first one is me and her (: