head ache and eye twitching

I feel like an idiot.
Apparently he just meant to go cinemas as friends. silly me, i feel so stupid after sending him that email... Ah never mind, at least i know he's not mad at me.
I felt like bloody crying this whole day. My legs were really weak, my hands were shaking for like the whole day and my head was hurting. It was also such a bad hair day, it looked terrible!

Later on after school i was stressing Louise out, as i couldn't find anything that i want for Christmas. Maybe a slipknot poster? hmm, no not on my wall no. :D Oh yeah i also bought 20 cards for all my lovely friends and if you want one, just comment on this saying your address and I'll post a Christmas card! Seriously i got loads.

non-uniform day tomorrow as it's the last day of school, and then in lunch time we're going to collect Louise's photos and go to 'Paperchase' where I'm buying her the present (a photo album) and yeah, we're going library afterwards to put the photos in the album and im going to take it home to wrap.
Might go winter wonderland afterwards with all the people, but still not sure as she hasn't texted me yet.
that's it, au my leg feels really weird.
Why am i writing this post?

Bye.

my bones ar moving to your street

Es jutos ka ista mai*a... Es atkal ta izdariju, caur e-mailu. Es esmu tik BERNISKIGA, for fucks sake!!
Es aizsutiju vinam tikko emailu:

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Hey, I don’t think I can go cinemas as well, because i don’t really have time for it…

Why did you want to go cinemas anyway? I hope you’re not asking me out please don’t say you were, that would just spoil the friendship, sorry I couldn’t say this to your face because i don’t have the guts, I’m really shy… But if u want to go cinemas just for fun I can, and I might be able to get you a free ticket as well hahah ;D
Anyway I hope u still want to teach me drums at like maybe February? Because I’ve got so much to do, like my art, I have to finish the whole thing before February, and all those MOCKS, and 2 science exams…
Alright speak to you when I see you : )

Man dreb rokas, un gribas raudat kapec vinemer ta notiek?
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Pec skolas ar Luizi eju uz Jessops un mes printesim ara bildes. yeey, excited for that.
Es needu savas pusdienas jo es kraju ziemassvetku davanam.

Aks me anything.
http://www.formspring.me/borrowapillow

confused

let the bitches bitch. meitenem es nepatiku un vinas par mani apdirsa, Ha, i don't care, i don't need you, LOL

Ah, kautkas sokejs notika. Es nespeju noticet, kas man nav atlauts vienkarsi 'draudzeties' ar viriesu dzimtes parstavjiem, kapec viniem vienmer ir.. jasaboja viss. Lidz sim es domaju ka mes ar Dzeikobu esam vienkasri draugi, bet tad sodien kas izradas: vins pavisam sapratis visu citadi. Visi tie.. aah. Es tagad visu saprotu, tad TAPEC vins mani uzaicinaja lidzi uz to festivalu, un tapec vins man piedavajas macit spelet bungas!! Man atkal vedera ir ta kutinosa sajuta (nejau laba nozimee) because i know i've got a problem. I don't know what to do, and i dont want to hurt anyone.

Tatad: vins uzrakstija man e-mailu prasot kur es esmu. Es atbildeju: LRC' Vins pec kadam 5 minutem atnaca un paradija man zimiti uz kuras LV valoda rakstits: Vai tu gribi ar mani kadreiz iet uz kino?' un prasija ka tas ir jaizruna.., Es nezinaju ko teikt, es jutos ka mulke. Ko vins grib iisti zinat ka jasaka vai vins grib ar mani iet uz kino?! Taka es justos loti nejauka, es teicu yess, bet es negribu lai vins saprot visu nepareizi, ahhh la la la. Varbut vins domaja to ta kaa.. Nu vienkarsi: Draugi. Kino. Fun.

im confused, shit, shit, shit.
listen to Slipknot- Psychosocial,  palidz tikt pari visam grutibam. Es vairs nezinu ko darit, ka lai es vinam pasaku ka es negribu all that girlfriend boyfried crap.

autopsy

cau,
mm, es te isumaa :D
man skola sak patikt vairak un vairak ar katru dienu + neviens vel nav pieversis uzmaniibu tam ka es jau tris nedelas nesaju apspiletas melnas dzinsas bet tas manuprat ir del maniem maties, mazliet par spilgtu iznaaca, bet vizsmaz ir labums.
jaam, es nedabuju isti savu sapnu matu griezumu, mazliet pa garu atstaja pie sakneem, bet njaaam nezeelosos, matu krasa katru ritu man griezas aciis, jo kad es piecelos sedus, vienmer sanak skatities spogulii, un laikam es tagad parliksu spilvenu otraa pusee.

vakar bija pirmaa diena stradajot brivpraatigi ziedojumu veikalinaa, (humpalaas neskaistak izskaoties) un bija diezgan normali. es gandriz neko nedaru tikai dzeru teju un pieskatu ali neviens nenaak 'staff room' lai gan viens onkulis ienaaca un skatijas apkaart un runaaja par kautkadam aciis, ka vins vinas vissur redzot, man bija mazliet bail, bet tad atnaaca menedzere barbara, (nav ka izklausas vins ir forsa, 20 gadiga rudmate ar kuru ir loti interesanti runaat, kurai ir 2 kaki un kura nevar tikt londonas modes uneversitaatee un kuraa vina piesakaas katru gadu,)
sodien es stiksos ar Luizi un varbut ar Ellu, un mes iesim uz siera festivaalu, mjaa,
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AAAA pazinojums tiem kas brauks vasaraa pie manis ciemos (Denija un Tereeze) mes brauksim uz festivaalu! uz 2 dienam man liekas bija, Dzeikobs mani uzaicinaaja un es teicu ka meitenes no Lv brauks ar mani tada gadijumaa. Un vel paris meitenes no sejienes. Vinas ir loti pacilaatas par iepazisanos ar jums ;D

nu taa, es eju huuverot maaju, jo man pec stundas araa, es sodien visa melnaa,
rundmate (nee uguniigaa sarkanmate drizaak)
xx